Who the fuck am I?
Dreams are back. Paralysed by them all yesterday but still really sleepy to. Awful terrifying war ones running around hiding from huge machines in the sky picking people off, one of the piloted by Kate volunteered herself and her children for biological determinism royal. Dreams are much more terrifying than what we can remember of war like experiences when we are generally seriously focused, that's probably the point. There aren't war dreams though are they but slaughter of civilians by big powerful high tech states, that's not war its the obliteration of peoples who were not a threat. The sheer terror of no where is safe and of violence that there is no way to defend from or retaliate to. We shut the blinds when we woke up the first time because we couldn't shake our fear of the sky and really tried to stay awake because we knew we would end up back there couldn't stay awake for long though. There were other dreams after the terror one continued though some even w