..dear reader..

Sat on the path just looking and feeling glad at all the prettiness and growth for a little while today, taking a break from antagonising our headaches by smoking too many fags. Sounded like the old guy is back next door. Hate hearing all their shitty scripted voices. We are not spending that much time outside anyway but we can still hear them if they are outside and we have the living room window open. Didn't distract us from Good Girls much though. We are not tempted by the thought of lighting the stove much without cannabis anyway. Kind of a shame but we need THCs and plenty booze or biggish gardening jobs to feel okay out there for long because of them. Its a shame too that we are still being held here without contacts or friends or family beyond the giant little man. Just because there is no one else to hug doesn't mean no one else wants to hug us or that it will always be the case.. There is many that didn't believe it was possible that we could do so much work and...

Sounds like Fred and Rosemary have left to go wherever they go when it isn't June or July so we can enjoy the garden without the constant stream of hate again. The younger couple are still there but they don't say or try and start anything without the senior Wests there. Wonder who it was the actual Wests pissed off to get media exposure and jailed.. Shame the deal up here is for life and none of the neighbours victims living or dead will ever get any kind of closure or justice or peace. The voices of the seniors may be gone but we still have lots of memories to keep us disgusted and cold, like early this summer when we were writing in our notebook and they went on and on saying we were writing about them, or when we put our clothes on the airer and the old guy went on and on saying what was so good about my clothes I couldn't put them on the line and of course the years and decades of much much worse against me, Laura, Margo, the kids and many many more. But its okay Sc...

He texts back at least. Says he working all the time and has to sleep some time and can't drop anything off. We say we are healthy enough to never text Ms Campbell again pretty sure we heard her hollering up at our house again the other week after leaving the Krugars, she had the cheek in the past to say they made her do it, she also once brought a message from them saying if we let the younger lad in there fuck us we would've given lots of cash and weed sellers would sell to us. We asked her to leave and then dissociated, they were waiting outside for her answer..  We say it's cool. It isnt of course how could it be. Same as in Dundee we would rather not be buying from Orange Order anyway but as we keep saying all the sellers are fasc who are not interested in showing any gratitude or payment for the work we have done protecting their communities and kids from being even more annihilated than they already are. Still plenty of loyalty to institutions that give the orders...

Avoiding the heat and the hate, to avoid more migraines. Its getting to us, without cannabis and our self programming to give us a hope bubble, some cushioning. The window between scripts has ended and no one has helped us or themselves or future generations or the planet. Not helping the slaves is the only priority and the only thing the patriarchal apparatuses work together on. Its hopeless.

Its pretty self destructive thinking that this could be it. That we will be left here friendless forever and will loose Pablo to all the bullshit and hate and his human need to be accepted by "people" who will never accept him. We are hurting now though. All the evidence we have gathered, all the proof all the confessions but all it achieved was the Kruger's next door put some screening up on there side where we missed a bit and don't comment and slag off every move we make. Just repeat previous shit instead. Not exactly just, insults heaped upon injuries in the hope enough will result in more injuries. Doubt the police will be turning up as quickly as they have for them in the past when they phone to complain that the neighbours they are abusing are just ignoring it because so much has been desytoyed. The way they would shout evil shit at Laura's wee ones. How the fuck can people justify, protect and defend that? There is only one answer and the science backs of...

Such a heartless and viciously brutal world without lots of denial and amnesia isn't it Mummy.. Waiting for abuse to come over the fences or from a passerby. Knowing there is little chance to escape slavery, to be away from constant hate, to be treated appropriately by professionals and know there is somewhere to complain if you are not.. Not if the British state has you in their borders. We are Jews, the blood in our veins threatens them and the education we got as slaves so the professionals don't have to do or know much disgusts them. The only thing hated more than us is the idea that we might get away and live peacefully happy lives looking after and loving each other. We hold back the memories of all the work and the fighting when we are on our own for as long as we can. We really don't like being nose to nose with the fact that all it amounts to us still having a pulss, still being on the outside of that shed and in a state to be angry about it. It was a while befo...

Hedgeyhog!!!!!! Being inside thier shed was always better than being inside their house in any weather or temperature but being on the other side of the fence is even better still.. However, feel like I shouldn't have to hear or be prepared for so much hate, threats and horrific confessions every time I use my garden.