Wednesday
Windy. Got towels in the machine. Got some uncomfortable feelings about dealing with the area near the steps. There's triggers there. Also triggers in not doing it of course. Not going to buy or attempt to buy a holly again that can wait for another year or another garden. We had a look about this morning when we went to put peanuts out for the flock, checked everything planted in the past few days. Everything in it looks good. Some grief that area has caused seeing it finally start looking good in a way and We know isn't just a bunch of issues just covered up. We are putting in perennials that might take years to properly get going so there's plenty of sadness over that and a lot of uncertainty about what's next. Christ maybe will be here see it and have good neighbors that don't smash pretty glass lanterns, throw out gifted mini sunflowers, arn't abusive to any teenagers especially autistic very loving ones and never threatened our life for not being able to live elsewhere. Fill the flats up with other survivors and friendlies have chilled out mini summer festivals and undertake over ambitious gardening and mechanical projects together while we figure out I.D. Safe adults for Junior to play D&D with. People to walk with so We don't mind being whatever We are in public so much.
Or something like that but somewhere else. I really wouldn't mind if it was here if people could visit and stay. If we were reasonably safe.
Missed a call from the school yesterday, the guy said we would get the other guy to call every few weeks or so. I'm sure whenever this happened before it was the exact same time of year. Junior seems alright good even but We really struggle to talk to him and see how he is. Think he does get sad when we haven't forced him to watch tv together for a while and the livingroom is was always cozy is even better now.
Haven't decided if there will be walk then wine later. There is a couple of the chicken breast kievs that I adore and he's not that fussed about in the freezer that really do deserve wine. Wind freaks us out though make us jumpy. We moved some seedings in the hope they will be less likely to be blown about. Not sure how many of the 12 delphinium plugplants surviving but there is like 7 or 8 at the moment it would be good not to loose anymore.
We got a good few books for us both classics are cheap including Dostoevsky House of Dead and the Gambler haven't read much of it but it is what we need right now in the brief moments we can settle to read. Misrable situations are alright to read about as you lounge on your bed in your clean pretty room or on in the stunning garden you grew sipping pink wine. The bloody new lanterns arrived yesterday,
Only going to leave one out, would be so cool secured the wall in the way that lessens the chance of it smashing in the wind at least. The fairy windows are yet to arrive and it's gonna make our day when they arrive, we can creak our way down the stairs and open an envelope with two small window windows in it. Then get to decide and and where to put them up. Tidy up the area around and such.
