November 19, 2015

later in november..

We often find our thoughts leaning towards the benifits of drug therapies.. Gabapenten holding our hand again. It all sounds the same, granted but our brain isn't.

Could invest in ourselves enough to buy a decent tablet puter.  Very happy. So much we can do now that we couldnt do before. So many therapy apps..

We have finished with the therapist we were seeing and are still avoiding all msm news. Except for the front pages we fail to avoid..

We are lighter of a lot worst of it or getting there at least. Couldnt say we feel like ourselves but we are starting to recognise us better.

Stomach muscles sore sometimes with the super stressed breathing that gets us sometimes particularly after sleeping or contact with Margo. Or when we think about some of the stuff that went on with therapist but we are getting more confident in getting though it without falling back into all the squished up pieces again.

Not what would comfortably describe as 'present' but wouldn't say we weren't here either.

Not sure we would be saying that without any drugs through. The pain, the anxiety, the programming, the fear would be relentless.


1 comment:

  1. HI. I find this so heartbreaking and tragic. I can not even describe the words. I almost wish this were all just a fetish page with a fetish theme because even though that would be repugnantly disgusting, I would rather that be the case instead of it actually being the truth. To find out that this is real. I believe you, and I think it is so tragic, and I wish I could cure everything. The whole system. What can we do? following this page makes me sick to my stomach, but it feels like a duty. What do you think? I hope that you are not insulted by the question or comments.....