I will not be there because it's expected. People also expect children to not be fucked by family members and forced to drink and hurt each other.
I know we have talked about this before but I think you are going to have to come to terms with me not being part of the rest of the family. At the moment I feel like I need a year before I can be in the same room as any of the Aberdeen lot. I understand you can't handle it when psycho starts getting abusive towards me but comforting her and listening to her and her hate while I am left alone has only ever made things worse. People also expect to be able to discuss finding a sibling dead with another sibling, less than a week after the event without being dismissed with sarcasm and indifference. We all cope with loss in our own ways and it is out of respect for your oldest that I say that psycho is not my sister and that man is not my dad. I can not stand to should respect for someone who is dead with a bunch of people who had no or little respect for her when she was alive.
Maybe we can do our own thing once the rest have fucked off again.