August 02, 2015

10th of August

It wasn't the time to be thinking about where all this shit came from. Not for us anyway. Some of what happened to mum she never let me see. She said we had to trust her and we did. Usually. I'd seen how hard she fought to stop me knowing and felt her terror when it looked like I might see so we never looked now matter how hard people tried to make us. We did our time tracing this terror back through the wars and further of course what with mother and her friends' files we were allowed to see and lots more across the globe but there was still a sense of not knowing and had asked her is the stuff she would never tell us had something to do with the 10th of August and she agreed. It didnt take too many years of survivng the worst days or given getting through the quieter times that you often had to let everything you thought you knew to be real.

Especially in August. 

Getting through it meant abandoning all sense of the past rather than watch as all your safe places were turned torture chambers. Nothing feels less like your flesh, less like the present than your body in the here and now and its almost understandable how so many people het washed under and end up as nothing but obstacles for those fighting to keep their heads above water.

It was a insect of a question. Everyone flicking and willing it to go pester some other bastards there would no answers to help any of us any time soon. It was partly our dreaded curiosity to but I knew the whole 'no safety, no truth' thing wasn't some smeegle like clutch to a life that was long ago impossible. I had no choice but to take this ridiculous mind, the Resistance, the ridiculous circumstances and mass scale crimes against humanity seriously.

The abusers were very early on the scene when we were very little. We would of managed not to tell them everything. I hope, we didnt know what condition mother was in and had looked for her protection when she was already calling for mine.  There wasn't any time or energy this time last year to be getting deeply into anything that was crucial. Too many operations at crucial stages, and too many people trying to determine our future or kill us.

'What is it about the 10th August anyway?'

Bowbly centre's 'Ritual and Abuse and mind control' seemed a good place to start but its section on August on Lammas and of course heaps of other horrors but no specfic mention of the 10th.  As someone who attended classical British education establishments the next step was not Wikipeadia it was Encyclopaedia Britannica which was of course useless. The first entry on Wiki is as many of you readers well already know fine is the 10th of August is 'shorthand for the Tuiliers Palace'.. i.e. the French Revolution..

We often try and remember the few French Revolution lectures we made it to but there were awful times.

As we have stated at times in many ways we are left wing in a give a uniform (or just a weapon) kind of a way. On the other hand history has demonstrated by any dumbasses reconing that cutting the heads of whoever happens to be born or married into to situations where they have bits of paper that says they own more shit that anyone could ever manage does not lead to an end to widespread hunger and injustice. Its those in a position to benefit the most of the old pre determined, short term, self destructive bullshit continues as well those who feel they commited such gross acts that they deserve the power and who vomit at the thought of actual news papers, TV stations and web sites printing, showing and discussing actual things that have or are happening in an vaguely informed and wholestic manner.

There is of course the ever present all kinds of horrific satanic horrors who have exploited issues relating to my own bloodline and social life which it comes to the 10th.. I dont have the documentation to hand. I just have actual DNA. And a skill set that most people prefer not to go against if we are feel very confident of a course of action..

most people..

if they are in their right mind..


Random association time -"August the 10th" 'I hate the fucking press'

For us.  All of us. It was always inescapable We would all work with everything we could to stay blind to the associations we were all being bombarded with in very co-ordinated ways. Using every trick we could to manipluate our consciousness away from knowing it was August. We were all in pieces, you can see it peoples eyes when you walk outside or try to talk to someone. Everyone buried so deep inside themselves its impossible to know who is safe and who isnt. When their plans and scenes really start up it was impossible to keep an eye on yourself and all the parts of yourself that they may well know all about as they created them but no one has told you.  So easy for them to find a way in, a deeply traumatised little, a triggered blind action procedure, an E.P that has been waiting and hiding for years, even hearing a word can initiate mental and emotional processes that even those who understand all the precise procedures, tech and corruption can still not get out of and if your on your own, already ill, in danger etc.. yikes..

 It was that feeling all the your work all the effort to build bridges inside ourselves and between each other and we would feel it unravel back to previous state, like there can been no fighting, no running,  no learning, no healing that made us think fuck this a few times. Some bastard or bastards would turn up last minute though and show us what we had achieved, what was only going to get better and it was because of us and that is would get better, even though we had been told it million times. Things have to change. No matter what.

They take away what we build to survive and then they gloat about it through the life styles, careers and choices of the people who are supposed to protect us.

We would be told by them that turned up after the worst had been cleaned up that it was just programming, we were just being made to feel that way, that it wasn't real. That they were police, MI5, CIA, FBI etc and they were going help us but they needed our help to explain what happened and to gather more evidence. But that was ridiculous. We all had to stop feeling and not let them catch you thinking. Everyone knew long before puberty that this was utter shit. These people were the worst. Most other kids stopped talking to anyone but our abusers would all still be making us all talk. I had my mother though. Driving us forward. Forcing us to run when we would rather of just let them kill us.

The only way to break the power over everyone was to find out peoples worst triggers, the stuff that made completely dissociate any time rendering them totally fucking vulnerable to any well know or experimental techniques aimed at the destruction of the individual's sense of self. Or in laymens terms when shit is at its worst and you have been targeted they may have doing things you never thought you were capable of such as child sexual abuse or murder. How? because your abusers and all those who have seen the tapes no exactly what was done and said even it you dont and they can trick your poor flesh acting out what was done to you on another child. Actually there are more steps and a longterm fuck with you campign to build up to events up but when we described there is something that sick cunts get involved in and attempt while terrify children into thinking they can do it all the time whenever they want.

One of the simpliest and worst is using triggers of all kinds to distract adult survivors so they can grab their bairns. Absolute nightmare that one.

Some people didn't want to where they have been. It woulnt matter how much I or anyone else explained them how it was important that they acknowledge it and that does not mean reliving it and that they needed to everything they could to look after themselves because once anyone was was captured they would be used for the worst. Sometimes they would return them in their big shinny cars, gloating and laughing loudly, no more bother from that one...  

The worst of the deaths, the tortures would recorded to be used to trigger, to be manipulated to make those involved look different, and other uses of course..

Some of us are curios as to why the 10th of August is not mentioned Epstein and Schwartzs. Plenty of other stuff is mention like the Warsaw ghetto and Nazi Birthdays but not the French Revolution. Dont think its as bad as the whole Laurie Matthew down playing the money, the VIPs, the military,the whole in extreme situations, certain individuals especially those with particular DNA and PTSD exhibit what some may describe as 'psychic'

Or in our own language.. Your all telling all the bairns that what they experienced didnt happen, they didnt all see or feel what they all heard, just like with sexual abuse which they all being victimised and/or exposed to 'didn't happen, thats impossible, s/he wouldnt do that, these things are not real.. Thus making them scared because they know they are being lied to about matters of life and death, making them more vulnerable to grooming by people who dont have the same hang ups and who often have decades of experience in using mind manipulation to influence and control children.  Due to there own unrecognised triggers and unprocessed horrific traumas they to are still on some levels small abused children and can use their small hurt scared selves to gain the trust of external littles..

Which makes sensitive intelligent souls in danger of getting a bit trigger happy.











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