..dear reader..

Okay Cosy guess we can use some of our precious battery on what we started writing yesterday for you. You were conceived in hell but they didn't get near us through out the pregnancy. You were not the first so were in less of a state of confusion and terror. We were a little older. Maybe teenage? Or at least soon to be teenage.. Ran out of the stronger painkillers and its been pretty nasty. Got some now though. Wish you were with me Cosmo. With your big amazing eyes. So theres over a 1000..Thats quite impressive or would be if it could be taken out of context. It would be pretty sick, extremely if it wasnt for the slavery and killings that made it necessary for so many reasons. No one was protecting Earths human gene pool and the genocide and sadistic forms of social control were and are in every cell that makes up the institutions and practices of this world. There was no resistance left in any position to resist. Watched all five seasons of Orange Is The New Black. Eventual...

Hiya Rosie Rosie daughter daughter, So many of them wasn't there. All smiling and enthusiast and keen to get on with job at hand.. Such a beautiful sight and so utterly useless.. It was really hard choosing people to shut the program down. So hard to tell anyone what we had been doing. So difficult for so many of us to let go of. It was we set up to keep ourself alive and ran in levels that are extremely hard to communicate with. It was what we did to stop us from thinking about you all the time. It was we did to survive and attempt to acknowledge the scale and the reasons for all the genocide and the breeding. We will carry none of them but they will all come from our eggs and brought up away from it all at least that way we had some control over our eggs as well. They must be less useless now. Surely. Love you love you. I'm sore and tired all the time can you come rescue your mummy yet?

As nice as it was having the mattress against the radiator feels good to be in a bed that is all attached itself, doesn’t move about as I move.. that is made of big bits of wood.. didnt cut any corners putting it together either and that includes screwing down every slat by hand..at both ends.. Rescued the vintage pink duvet out the spare room and its on the new bed, since we were in there dumping the bits of old bed we nabbed a couple of pictures and have been moving what we have up already around.There's a lot of wall space in here and its bare which is grim. It is lovely lovely weed and we are very glad to have enough for tomorrow we couldn't sleep last night and ended up just getting up and cleaning the kitchen and hoovering the fith in here before dude was up for school. Our room is beautiful. Its a lovely space for us to be exhausted in. Finished moving pictures around and swung around clothing to get rid of some of the spider complexes. Its so good to be able to d...

I think it still hasn't been returned. But its Wednesday and we woke up this morning with baccy, milk, foood, heating and really decent proper weed. It was wonderous. Grace and Frankie got us through. And Pabs who again was really chilled about having fuck all and that made it easier to make something out of the bits and bobs left to keep his belly cozy and not not resent it. Horrid though. We did really well all in all to though. Asda was phoned three whole times and the bank once as well and we mean we spoke to people those times it's not the number of times we dialled the number. Got no where. Margo had same shit years back and ended up with us in Dundee. Both articulating very clearly that the other could return the cash for the undeliverable groceries very easily and neither doing it. We have bee keeping in mind its wise to listen to the voices that says we need to eat lots and take it easy today. Poor tummy. The no milk thing was pretty bad. We got almond milk from Shon...

We got through to Asda but the guy said they hadnt taken the money but we got the “your order is being processed” on the app and if the money was already gone you get “there was a problem processing your order”.. We just said ok and hang up. Really shitty though, cash less, milk less and hardly any food, gas already in emergency, again. Wish we hadnt ordered the new bed cause they cant deliver it anyway cause of all the snow. Ug. .. “.. guess we will have to phone Niall then.” After the call was over we asked her if she thought we would and she said no that me and the lad would end up in hospital with malnutrition before that. We said it takes more than a few days less food for real malnutrition to kick in but she didn’t look particularly comforted by it. It was the last of those calls but neither of us felt like celebrating it because it meant the end of contact between us as well. Did I mention we fucking hate this slaver haven planet because it annihilates all humanity and ...