February 27, 2017

You don't have to do that any more, they're all gone.

It's so good to be able to think about her without having shatter our self into pieces because of where we are and how much it wasn't allowed. The high up networks and their associates were very clear on that. We didn't exist but she especially didn't exist. The worst and most abusive of Russian, British and American histories, cultures and military have all meshed up together and protected by all that off Terra horror tech and outposts and facilities.

Something in us was urging us to fight harder to pay attention to figure out what was going on. The system was so familiar. We had spent so long with them. How the hell did people figure out evil had such applications? We had already done most of the work all we had to do was open up to the memories and we knew what to do. We fell to pieces when we found him and realised that although we had freed people from machines and apparatus like this before without killing them when much smaller we were know but we couldnt do it alone this time. We looked around at where we were, what was around us and it helped us fall together enough to realise we were in a place and time where we didn't have to do it alone.

We had already worked it out with him so after he was free and we in another room uncurled so we could go to him see his eyes, see him move he wouldn't fight to try and not say whatever was programmed about who our real mother was but he gave me back the note he had in his hand for years.

Dad do they really never let you out?

It's better that way.. We nodded between sobs.

Yeah it hurts so much when they take you out. I know. We hugged and cried lots and said really important things then I had to help him back in and set it all up like I hadnt been there.

Once we had seen him and had the location we weren't interested in hanging around. We were on big mission mode. We couldn't hear what people were saying and even when we could we couldnt get away from the really strong sense that it what ever was being talked about was of no importance at all even though that would be struggling to be much further from the truth. We said we had to go and looked back at Dad but just felt all the more confident that we had to go and sad that we had to. They could tell by looking at us that we had go and that whatever we were about to do would probably be significant. Hugs, kisses, tears, more hugs, serious words we couldn't hear and the hatches and then we are back in our speedy little ship alone with the location of one of the worst satanic women ever created who also happened to be our biological mother.

We weren't up for getting to close but we had to admit it was quite an impressive structure when we started getting flashes of our time there and Julia's time there and everything that was going on there now and would be going on if we didn't end it. We stayed long enough to see that there wasn't going to be anything left intact in that mess of fire and metal then moved on. There was a lot to do.

It was all done and done well.

Slaves were rescued, the lost allowed to rest, we let people who had been kept on sites decides what would happen to the sites once they were off them and that gave some people who had been previously rescued a chance to actually use the big toys. One peep had concerned us by saying things that was starting to show signs of a lust for mass destruction and we were glad he was getting to finally get what he wanted because we knew that when he actually did it it would hit him and he wouldnt be so lusty any more. We felt some regret and letting him do the job when we heard and felt how long the puking went on for while we sped on. He told us we were right at least we thought that was what we said it was heard to tell with all the retching and puking and all the shouting and hooting in the background.

It was all serious but what we had planned next was serious serious serious and we hadn't had time to go and over and it. I'm not describing what it was and what they had built it to look like. I don't think we had used the science we were using too many times on this scale but we knew those numbers had been gone over and over even if the steps hadn't. It's not because we didn't have time we told our self as we got closer and closer and nerves and the guts and the palms and the breathing and the concentration got worse, its because there was no need to go over and over it. It will be fine. It always is.

We weren't for hanging about there either. They couldn't see us and probably still wouldn't if we had started blasting tunes and space writing "morning fascists" all around the undead fucks. We remember taking a moment just to look at it and think about everything it meant and was there was only one word, "yuck". We knew it wouldn't take long to set up the grid that when activated would put that particular site in a big box and then squish it. As we do whenever we can the megabrains take a back seat after the buttons have been pushed to let the amnesiacs and the scared and the Scottish see the results. There it was the box of bluish light over the lines and the military greys, it's working! then holy shit.. and We did that? .. I can see why you would want us to know..

The last site we hit is still there and intact. We asked if ze wanted to go somewhere and ze said they wanted to stay where they were for now it would be nice to be there and be okay to not be imprisoned and tortured, we said we got that and was happy to take a break from the mass destruction anyway.  We stayed there as long as we could, happy and safe and alive and with a very good and very amazing friend.

Then we had to come back here. We talked and cried and laughed with Julia lots on the way back whenever we could trying to make the most of the rare contact while we had it. She had been looked after ok for a while and her speak was improving. I couldn't stop crying.

We landed at one of our usual places in the States they weren't expecting us. The guys didn't know what to do with us we couldn't speak or say anyway. Some higher up nasty type look us away and tried to threaten us when no one else was around. It stopped us from crying. We stood there wiping up the streaming snot and wiping our face with the tissues the guys got for us thinking about everything we had just done and it was very grounding he wasn't scary at all without that shit up there backing him up. We told him to fuck off he looked like he was about to go for us but stopped when we scoffed at him, then left and went to our bunk to rest and sleep.

We woke up with someone in the room whispering at us in the dark. The high up prick was kicking up shit because we told him to fuck off. We were glad it was who it was they had dealt with us in all sorts of states and always made things better so we invited them in and spooned while we asked what they knew and told them what we had done. It was one of those this is probably a bad idea but I needed to do. I hope they are still alive and okish and can forgive us for telling them everything. We knew we were going back to Scotland and that things for me and bairn and lots of others was going to be very very awful and we had to make the best of every second of affection and truth. They were planning on killing me and putting Julia here. Some still thought this was the case during the summer when we had to pretend to be Julia on the phone so they probably still think it. Cunts.