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 First real base, home on Earth. It was pointed to on maps over and over. Because we could and did forget and end up crying cold and alone somewhere to tired to figure out who to do next, too scared to remember anything good. With the British I just wish the heart break was over or at least lessoned. Loads bloody know what the King and his sons and their associates are and what they have done and what they will continue to do. You know she swore he wasn't her's and of course she was bloody right. It's irrelevant anyway because they're all just war criminals. The imposters torture, enslave and plan the deaths of the 'real' bloodline it's the British Way, an ancient sadistic cult. I loved her she loved me and both of us were both treated relentlessly horrific by vast swaves of British institutions and society and vast sums of money was and is being made from it in the UK and beyond. None of us can hide behind her or Phillip anymore though. There is regicide. M...

 Been a lot better the last few weeks, decent weather in August is seriously appreciated when your June is July is spent in dissociated terror, meaning eating was so difficult, growing shut down, couldn't leave the house so badly We used newspaper and pritstick for cigerette papers. Fucking grim working so hard on the garden just to watch it all turn to weeds when the prime growing season arrives. No showed the NHS Junior's in Newcastle and phone calls we asked for online but then couldn't answer. Just Nope. Came off the antidepressants don't want to be on them if there isn't any one checking to see if they are helping or hurting.  Put off the flat viewing to. Would have reluctantly accepted it last week, next week but apparently October now. It's not good letting her into our home. We did what We do, hope people are distancing themselves from abuse rings even if they were cutters/blood drinkers as kids and still causing us grief in Dundee and probably later but...

We look more and more like her everyday. But maybe its a mental thing. We see MLK  in Junior beats seeing his rapist “cant you take all that stuff of her” male paternal DNA contributor. We never see them in him but We wonder about his hyper mobility in the joints, more incest in the Trumps than the Brit royals.. yikes.  Programmed Putin gives NATO their fucking fascist war, Mr Biden sends a squadron of airborne brain damage machines. Just like We said they would in 1988, 9/11, Roe vs Wade, war and a bunch of horrific Satanic AF plans for me and Junior that have 0 chance of actually happening.  “I just want a peaceful life Mr Biden.” “Thats not possible.” After we hang up the phone rings again and it’s Merrick Garland. 19fucking88. Logiebank, Glenprosen. DD8 4SA. Kevin McKidd still alive, unforgivable by itself he’s not a royal or a trump or a BBC employee or a current politician, judge or Rupert Murdoch.. Think the centralised surveillance system in the Pentagon is down t...

 How many times have We been hit from the downstairs flat? Twice? Twice a year? How often they hitting Junior? How often have We been told 'never again'? Is there equipment there right now? Who could We trust to tell us that? The cracked concrete has been pressure washed again. As you do. If We could We would search the flat but We would much prefer to live somewhere safer rather than wait around to have our memory and sense of self annihilated. What's gonna trigger it this time. Something here? Garden photos? Some thing happening somewhere else? What there almost definitely wont be any curled up in a weeping ball with Junior while Tutrullo gets it on with whatever fascist sex worker he fancies. Because I am still not up for pretending slavery, extreme surveillance and consensual sex can mix. Think We are less at risk from other Trump et als. whoop. 'less risk'. Royal family? fuck knows. Me and junior are here without obvious support of any kind and the UK is still ...

 Its is after 10 so less than two hours until the marriage is annulled as far as our mangled brain can tell. He’s buddies with men of dangerously low self esteem, actual fucking proud boys (please may we be wrong) so me and Junior were never real concerns. More team slaver than slaves. More crimes against humanity and myself by the U.S We really wish they would quit it. Still terrified about Junior’s schooling and healthcare. Very weepy and sickened. 

 Still over the overdraft. Bastards. Working on grocery delivery though. Big one. Summer xmas.

 Damn. We are out of skins. There is pence around enough for rizlas but its horrid going to the shop for one tiny little thing. Maybe the eon money will be in later… way too busy out there now anyway. No showing hospital appointments. Fucking terrified. His cold is better but had issues with the digestive thing and its really upsetting we cant just go to hospital appointments. Cant think about next week. Cant think if any of the French stuff is real. Pretty sure the husband is.  Ate the dream beans yesterday. It was a few weeks ago We dreamed a really vivid image of the tin of beans in the cupboard open. No extra sugar. No extra salt. There was a swimming pool one to We knew it would feel like We were still under water after diving but wouldn’t be. We started talking and were right. Our head was above water.  This stinks. We should never of been in the UK. Thieving Brits. Where’s my subs at?