May 19, 2017

Cheers

Didnt do much today. Got the lad off but felt too upset about being on our own and the state of it all down here and giving our self zero chance of getting over this cough by the amount we are smoking as we burned through the rest of it. It wasn't sunny but it was dry and wasn't cold so we found ourself out the back rearranging pots, sweeping and attempting to limit pussy cat damage. Got a grocery delivery which came with Friday night bolog vino and a bottle of Mattis for when its warm next. Also got a half q delivered just as we were plating up which is good timing and picked up our bi monthly diazepam which might not last the weekend, not because we feel particularly down or anxious but because we want to experience as much not being down as we can in a day to day, minute by minute type way.

We do love May in these parts a bit don't we? The stuff coming into bloom, the seedlings that are no where near it, the rampage greenage everywhere, the cherry blossoms littering everything, the sweet organic stenches. Our own sweet organic white flower stenchy stuff is doing mentak as it did last year. We actually ripped some of it up to make safe for violas and have attempted to move of it to the path border that we have made a good start on. Amazon say they bordering and more compost has been dispatched.. A couple of seed packets on the way to, some love in the mist cause they are relatively easy so cool and some trailing stuff we can't remember the name of. Another bright plastic balcony pot thing instead of the trough we already have has been ordered to, they come in bright colours, and with easy hanging fixtures they are cheap with watery trays inbuilt. As much we eye ball stylish stone and ceramic beauties they weigh a tonne and are a shit load more expensive. Fuck it this shit needs to be shared




More soon or hopefully not, would love to be able to post pictures without having to tweet them first but the tech phobia is awful.. and he is going to be ten soon..

We can always show how its all developing if we are going to kept here for months longer. The violas are looking fine and will be amazing when they start flowering to. Starting a new garden, somewhere else with some/s else to help and enjoy it would be better of course. Gives us a lot of simple happy pleasures but we have to keep in the present and out of wider contexts as much as we can. This is our worst case scenario and we are making the most of it but it doesn't mean anything more than that and when we remind ourselves of that go back to being able to appreciate it in the here and now without being paranoid that we are investigating in the continuation in the denial of our own human rights.

Did we say the edging is on it's way? And lobellia seeds, a violent colour. We were thinking we probably don't have that specific colour so we can always take some with us.

Well we are quite intoxicated and need to go eat more food.

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"It will never be public that you have over twenty identical sisters. Never."

"Telling the public how many sisters I have has never been a priority Sir we just don't want to be raped and enslaved any more"