..dear reader..

I believe that the Japanese comrades who had to use the Satanic British networks to get a hold of our DNA to make a comparison with the young women whose recently slaughtered remains they helped extract from a field in Skene in the 1990s and have kept safe ever since have the results. The Satanic British networks being the NHS and adjoining "secret service", remember we said they took blood and the computer label came out "Louise Johnston" and the nurse said she would print out another with the "Julia Stuart" but we never saw her do it, she said it would get chucked out in the lad if it had the wrong name on, okay doke, we fucking wish.. Dude we texted about lay on never got back to us. We got cash now, took out 100 if anyone fancies bringing over some quality cannabis, or even not all that good cannabis and some proper pain killers cause we are done feeling brain damaged as fuck every time we pick up the apple phone, yes that symbol is a fuck you to al...

The tosser than never fixes anything came round and fixed it enough so the heating is back on tho and pissed about with the downstairs toilet and said it was fixed again so it will keep filling and not stop again the next time its flushed. Same problems Margo had with this place when she had the lease like six or seven years ago and Laura of course had to. Same shitty shit over and over again. .. Rosa Netanyahu we signed. The pigs were not happy. He's my mother who was slaughtered in Skene for being Jewish and female and intelligent's (can't remember how many generations it goes back but this is GB so probably hundreds) brother apparently and when we lost our American Dad (I hate that we can't remember what my Dad's people called their home) he turned up and said he would adopt me. What ridiculous huh? We got to talk to him when the Slaver powers that be needed something out of it. Everyday though he is choosing to keep me here. We could see where it was headin...

Lost the second weed lass. We asked her to bring over toilet roll she brought some, the cheap stuff fair enough. We forgot to give her change or add a quid or two when we made bank transfer for the weed and got a stream of texts from her yesterday saying how we were taking advantage of her and other crap we didn't bother reading before we blocked her. Spending everything on weed at the moment and it isn't helping all that much. Glad the awful triggery hugs at the door from her are over, we had years of hugging an absent/never was Margo we don't need another. We remembering saying in Skene in the early 90s that we did not want to friends with anyone who would only be our "friend" if slavers said so.. This is Earth isn't Terra is no more. It was natural and man made so it got destroyed because they couldn't get absolute and total control over it like the can with it's inferior man made imitation that did have an ancient Satanic computer at its cente...

Ug reader. We don't feel quite so alone suppose. We've a few brothers and sisters that have survived the surface but that's about it. We keep thinking about the standard mason approved cross section of Earth pointing at in in front of a bunch of somebodies and calling it as empirical as flat earth theory. They were all cheered so they were most likely bots and someone pressed the "cheer now" button and are currently teaching fictional propaganda "science" to those of privileged castes deemed stupid or broken enough to live. Some others far far away a long long time ago got tricked by Satanists into building this planet and it almost cost them everything except they still had enough sense left to destroy the unconscious flesh bots before everything was lost. It has been a privilege to help them heal and rebuild and show them the amazing work being done everywhere but planet dumbfuck. We believe they are and will help me here because they are good peopl...

So is this the fourth year we have been alone with no word from no anyone facing the week of the local school Halloween disco with the lad becoming more and more blind and deaf to me with every hour he spends in that school and another layer of bullshit added to his brain every time sleeps and every topic he wants to talk at me about are more and more overtly triggering. JK Rowling and "the chosen one" sharing a birthday, we can talk a tiny bit about it being racist and male supremacist and stupid but still can't talk about what is so deeply disgusting about the hook nose bankers or the house elves.. Pablo the writer of that book has literally told me she would kill you. Could you please stop saying we are wrong to call out sexism in Harry Potter. The other topic when he came in? Secret trials for his secret ninja club that were very close to the ideas behind satanic trials. We know he's got a him underneath it all, that our son is still in there but he isn't sui...

It was great to show Mia what happened the first time we were set up by the West, she would of seen it before but it would of been long ago and tonnes of trauma inbetween so would mostly be unable to access it. They made her go through back then because they not get the reaction they wanted from me. We had been prepared and already knew that any hope for the West would not be found in any of its circles of power and that would do anything to destroy us at any age and that was going to be impossible to know the difference between violence that was planned for us anyway and punishment for things we had done. Can't remember what big official institution it was but we do remember thinking the "important types" were themselves and not replacements or stand ins and were relieved because we needed it to come from them, the "real" them. We did our bit. Explained and provided evidence of extremely violent and oppressive practices in and by institutions that were publicl...

Crawled out of our abyss a little today, did some housework, made an easy meal and ate it with Pabs sitting at the table in the kitchen. Getting down to the layers of stuff that happened in hospital last year that actually happened. There was plans to get us to talk about the truth then force ECT on us, didn't happen because knew their plans and made sure someone was there to stop them. We would be dead though or more likely, much much worse if the Israelis hadn't eventually made it in. Thinking about the call we made to some front desk out there, saying we had just taken out a group of truly horrific utterly dead and Satanic women out there that we have needed gone for a long time. We apologized for all the mess we left, warned them that all their materials would still be there and were extremely disturbing, said not to worry about their chips as they had been removed and were destroyed and said something about ourself and our life and the how horrific it has been being ens...

Started thinking about David last night and haven't really slept yet. He was too good to leave us and too good to survive the years that have just passed. We couldn't walk about in Dundee together, espicallay with Pablo passersby would spit and attack us and say antisemitic shit. We can't remember the specifics of who eventually got him but we gotta say Louise Mensch and the Satanic Hollywood Jewish youth but they are too obvious so we gotta say they used a local kid to get him to open the door. What Scotlands children are is not something we could properly get him to understand. But maybe that's all rubbish and they got in and got him down because they still had a lot of serious tech and the forces that would join together to split us up were quite something.. Not the Israeli army so much though as they wanted to know why there solider hadn't checked in and how to get the body back as soon as possible especially after we said they would be doing horrific things ...

Quite rotten mood today. I have no friends here and it makes us sad. We have a mostly cool house to live in though and we have a packet of curlywurly squirlies and do recommend them. Partners never happy whenever they have been able to get the whole "I will still be alone and surrounded at this point" brief. Very heart broken. We knew some of them would pull the mission if they knew had badly we were being treated and how horrendous and hopeless conditions were but we had built up relationships with survivors on Terra we didn't want abandon and questions we wanted answers to. We can't hold back the war because our enemies are still not recognising our rights.. thats the whole reason for the war..I don't know what has reached whom yet but usually we would link our conscious recall to the approx time when certain information reaches certain partners so it's likely those that will act have or are getting what they need to make informed decisions and not be for...

We went outside yesterday. Bus and then walk to get fast food, handled it not too bad to begin with but then started hating it. Poor kid hasn't been allowed to enjoy a maccyds yet without being rushed out of the place because its all full of happy healthy almost always all white people and we know too much empirical history and ongoing intelligence to buy it. It was drizzly and starting to get dark but we walked home through the park anyway we were so glad to be out and away from people. Pabs found a cassette tape of country music near some bins and was fascinated by it espically when we said it was rare to see them these days and was probably from the 1980's .. Their was a kid crying in restaurant though of course schools are off and it was Macdonalds around tea time.. In Dundee once there was a non white family in traditional Islamic dress and we were trying to not stare too much at them partly because it's rude but also because we didnt too look too closely and star...

We were never sure how genuine all the promises were of rewards of we got such and such back to a people or just got it out of the hands of the Satanists. We believed quite a few were genuine but doubted their understanding of what we were up against and how big and bad the big bad picture was. We were doing it anyway they were using it to enslave us and everyone who might be nice to us. The sources of peoples culture and religion the whole sources and not just the sanitized versions and using bits they could pervert as the basis for the ritual abuse was their power. It gave them total control over technology, ideology, science and all aspects of human behavior and psychology. What got us in first was support from very far away who needed something of theirs back and that was when we saw the haul and wept over it for the first time and more or less knew we had to get it all out and help people as much as possible to understand what was lost. Horrible work for a child that cant under...

She came round with a lay on talk about her coming over for a cuppa and helping me clean. Says the lass we blocked for texting us abuse days after we refused to let her come round says hi, no apology for the nasty as fuck texts or anything just "hi" and lots of talk from my supplier about how the other lass is changing. We don't want to be friends with the other lass again and we don't want supplier to help clean the house and we don't want her advice on managing mental health or chronic pain. She had invited us over to hers and we said sure, maybe but the idea filled us with terror and she never texted to push the point so that was fine. I hate the being talked to almost like I am like everyone else we have asked people to analyse it in the past, preferably someone who knew bugger all to say yes everyone does treat and talk to us differently and it's obvious and measurable. We let him on the how people talk about us when we are not there, gave a shit tonne a...

Yesterday we had some decent strength pain killers, the offensively small amount diazepam we fought long and hard and were subjected to all kinds of blatant and subtle slaver talk from GPs to get, got more weed and a bottle of vino as well and wrote most of this. We know there was talk back in Dundee in particular about us slowly starting to engage our brain again. Usually the people who enourage us in this are trained in the procedures involved in the taking the intellectual property, creativity and memory of rich minded slaves so they can throw away the good stuff then hack up anything low brow, remove any diversity and empathy and hand it out to the meat muppets with tax codes and the allowed allowed to be on TV faces. Need the drugs to properly remember and feel, to know we are real, know love is real and to get past all the slaver systems who have tortured us and threatened us into feeling and knowing very little and to share nothing. Need the drugs, the comfort, the lack of an...

Been thinking bout Honey, war name Mogwai. Been thinking about Marcon and what a horrific Satanic creation he is. Been thinking about ongoing crimes against humanity that is Nintendo. Been thinking about getting the ancient artifacts stolen and kept and used by the slavers against the peoples whose cultures produced them and perverted and incorporated by the Satanics and the slavers for millions of years in some case. They came out the slave built tunnels raped and pillaged and turn them there would be more and they would be back and would know if anyone did anything they shouldn't. How they took pubescent girls, took their art, their science, took there faith.. Returning most of all that is something that has always given us much pride and faith in the mission to keep going.  The stuff from ancient China, the stuff from what is now Iraq, the Tibetan stuff that we couldn't find anyone safe or in a position to translate a bloody word of it so had to returning it all to China as ...

Dear Sweetie, Miss you. Got a headfull of growing up in the tunnels. The voices, the self determination, the friends, the help and anything with any real internal clout had us heading underground long before they officially had us on clearing them out. To be getting in touch with all that is wonderful. We remember how we made a difference down there. We remember the laughter about how we would meet "family" down there from at Russian and Scottish entrances. We remember they were right enough and how over time we did our best to give them some kind of self defence, some kind of self sufficiency back after everything they had hacked, bred and sliced away. Goodness they were not happy when they noticed the slop they chucked down was being left to rot. We couldnt help noticing that at the Russian and Scotland ends they were speaking different languages but were saying the same thing. The exact same thing. We were dumped in "ours" in the eighties. Railroad was real....

We remembered the Bethesda death tunnel. Basically anyone that came into their building that showed signs of life and was therefore no use to them was sent down there. Sooner or later. With a headfull of vicious programming, all sorts being sent at them and slaver fiction telling them the Railroad was just down there but it led to a dead end. They had us down there a fair amount. We could tell the gathered a fair amount about what was going on with the murals, the odd corpse, the gas outlets that had to get a single from the Aberdeen hard drive we were forced to build over here. They would rather let people starve to death, putting bets on cannibalism and laughing as they watched and listened, using it against family and friends and other victims. The record of incidents where we had provided evidence of it and people in it that could be saved was fat, very fat. We wanted to stay in that moment as Merkel and Marcon stood and starred at it forever because it was so real but we knew t...