Hello blue skies

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Put the bunting up on the 25th, seemed like a good time to do it, its cheerful. Wasn't trying to make it even but maybe wishing a little that we had now. It can stay as it is for now though. Weather helped a lot with misery levels of course. We have a done a fair bit of getting out and about. Shopping went well. Found a pair of short length size 14 boot cut jeans on sale, much needed as the size 12s from Amazon are a nightmare to get on and we didn't want to be constrained by jeans cutting us in half when we went for our "birthday" (unbirthday) tea. Glad we made something of the day instead of just feeling extra horrid and alone. The first time in the UK we sat in a beer garden in a tshirt getting healthier skin on that day. Its more usual for it to be snowing.




Serious dent to our cash of course but it was worth it and it wasn't forced we wanted to have a shower, dry our hair, shop, eat and hit pubs and that is what we did. Told Pabs  that was the plan and he was not allowed to complain about the drinking and he didn't he was cool. Did tell him about Claire strangling him when he was a toddler though which was a bit of a shitty thing to do while drunk. We have been trying to think of ways to explain some things to him but blurting it out when drunk is not a good strategy. 

Tonight I helped him shave for the first time as he was getting a bit like the boy in the first Jumanji. He said he didn't want a mono brow and said he would shave it if we did, we said he would be better plucking that and asked if I would help him if needed. Got him manstroriser to. Crazy stretch makes the kid has on his shoulders and we are almost out of bio oil..




Joint pain kept us awake all that night though. Drinking definitely triggers that. We have wondered if sunshine does to. Surely not?

Did fuck all today except take it easy and wait for the groceries to be delivered with our baccy. Hoping to do some stuff tomorrow. Should probably manage a thing or two we have been doing well with the inhaler taking and the teeth brushing to.

Still no weed though and that is always going to suck, even if we are doing okay because we could be doing well, great even. The sleep dread just doesn't shift, can barely keep our eyes open but we don't to close them and lie down because of all the exhausting vivid discomfort and anguish sleep brings.

More tea. Its only 1 am.

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