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Nothing and no one helps slaves in Scotland so when we had to go away for a while to secure the Marshall college materials they got him. Back in Grosvenor when we assessed the damage we turned everything we could off on the spot just to scream and puke. Zombie husband still making very rare high quality sperm, completely unable to defend himself. We knew the value the evil in charge placed on his sperm because of its use in making more slaves. More slaves like him and me. We had to get his animated corpse out of Scotland, preferably off Earth. We worked hard at making them all think we were much more able to finish him and let him rest than we were. How he ended up out there with our Dad we can't remember, they weren't somewhere they could travel to but could possibly blow it up but the sick value of his DNA and the his sick value of his voics being used to manipulate us and our littles espically would stop them from finishing Peter, they didnt need my Dad, they didn't n...

We are doing okayish, considering we have a head full of Elon Musk, Shona MacGregor, Marshal College, the pure evil of the ancient to current day Aberdeen slave rings and of course, Sonny. .. Shone was in one of our dreams asking why we wouldn't touch her and that is quite of often a sign that they have died or are dying. She lived like she was trying to die since she was a kid so we are hoping its the former. Stolen egg, stolen sperm, an addict that cares nothing for their own or anyone else's flesh, a victimized beyond help population, a planet that cant wont care and ta da a male child with genes that haven't walked and talked on Earth for a good while now because they were all murdered. In Scotland, a country without genuine child services just lots and lots of slavers, Satanists, Fascists and misogynistic antisemits home grown and artificially constructed. Fuck you USA. Fuck you Italy. You all had choices and picked the worst and the sickest. Every fucking time. The...

Bugger all to report really, the school phoned to say dude was very sleepy in class. They have put him forward for autism testing and we have forms to fill in. We don't want to fill in any forms and feel like we really cant but we never wanted him to grow up or ever be in Scotland either though. Keep thinking about the cheer at the shot that went out from loads of neighbours when Bunny died. They were assuming it was me that was shot and were cheering because they thought I was dead and they now had Pablo and could do what they liked/were instructed to do to him. Besides the sheer horribleness of that there is the assumption that a dead head rape bot could kill a highly trained, self aware, organic human with one shot.. These people are incapable of learning, of processing information gathered from their own senses, of any genuine consciousness never mind self care or compassion at all. Been thinking about Lee the first young horror story that was selling to us, mostly hash of c...

Its not like the messages were particularly complex or difficult to achieve. Its not like anything could be lost in translation. I have to be allowed to move to somewhere where we are not sounded by thousands of victims of prenatal torture, programming and drugs that interfere or prevent normal brain development. Its not like we or the lad have an issue with the middle of nowhere, proper rural sounds lovely, truly lovely. There would be practical difficulties if we are still without a driver and would have to organise the grocery deliveries better but that like everything else would be a lot easier when we are not attempting to live and recover next to so many victims of prenatal mental and emotional annihilation. On and on things go though with all the money stolen and placed in the hands of victims who are physically incapable of making decisions and who will never be able to get beyond their truth phobias even if they wanted to and had the best of help. Some things can't be f...

Been thinking about Graham a fair bit recently. What he was when the tech wasn't forcing him to be the paedo scum bag who used to live next door but comes back during the summer to do the garden and abuse us, the prick that heard us crying on the bench and went in to get the rest of his family to all come out and speak nasty shit, the bastard that made life even worse for Laura and Margo and me, the cunt who is well known to have molested and murdered loads of kids over the decades but is still protected by the community and the authorities, Mr Fuck Her Sideways Bunny, who murdered some bloke last year because he thought he was there for me but was actually there at his request to help them with me not answering to any of their horrific verbal, Mr CIA, Mr MI6, Mr Russian Fascist, Mr Templar tool, Mr I've got all the dealers but no mind and no self awarness, Mr Satanic Scotbot mk 1.. The tech in Grahams skull was some old school shit that we didn't see often. Very powerfu...

Too little too keep this shit to ourself. Too pissed and pissed off to blank out the names. This prick has made several references to this blog in the past. Most do but of course it wasn't us that told them about it. Daddies & Gran & friends & husband etc plz rescue me soon...

It got around the networks during our Dundee years that President Fart was just going to be an embarrassment. Slave after slave had told them that but they don't take orders or information from slaves unless its asked for and they can been convinced by the Europeans that the slaves could and would make the presidency functioning. As we had never been paid or treated with even tiny bit of respect by the majority of American political class or agents we were not keen on helping them out of shit that we and many others had warned them about and could of easily been avoided. Its an ancient system to many, support something horrific and unworkable to force the slaves to work against it so we dont have time to help oursleves and so the dumb fuck populations accept major shittiness becaise its slightly less oppressive and violent than what was happening before.  They work the Brits though and a gap was found in Pablo's security and promised to kill or worse him if we didn't do ...

Missing ma peoples too much today to feel better just because they exist somewhere and love me. They are working to get me and our junior lectural in gaming out, to get us safe, with health care and education and friends and everything. Just gotta keep holding on. My Dad, my Gran all my fabulous and diverse children and all my best friends and their families and all the people we evacuated and their people have worked and lost too much to give up now. There is no science for this to be pernament anymore than there is any science for us to be ourself and feel good where we are. Been taken the pill at random times of day and that's probably contributed to bleeding and aching. Not as bad as our tumbs and wrists though. Putting the support glove on our right hand had us in tears for a little bit. Made some headway with the dishes then dirtied them again with old el paso for tea and of course the activity and holding heavy things has made them worse. We love our big mugs of tea but m...

Not so much a ball of misery today because we remembered some more about our blood lines and the times we have spent with them. Our mother like her mother before her ect did the same as we do when they ask us to point out the living, "its all gone. Everyone is gone." Because that's what the living do when asked to assist in the annihilation of everyone who gives us hope.  Did some dishes and made spag bol feeling well enough for vino, did a little garden tidying to. Vino is just making us sleepy though, sleep pattern fairly nocturnal at the moment thankfully because if we were almost asleep when we got a weed related text at 2 am it would of been impossible to get back to that state. The nearby lass not the Kirkauldy one, promising loads of weed and making declarations of trust and luv and saying how its been the worst year of her life.. .... ... If she said got weed u want and left it at that it would of been harder to block but thankfully her cold blooded, intoxica...

Our thumbs are hurting quite bad. Not sure what has triggered that. Too much time with our hands curled up next to our chest because that's how we sleep. Not too much house work thats for sure. Seriously can't face it. When we told a GP about how we sleep with our hands curled up close to us she said "that's very protective are you sure they weren't hurt before?".. We said they definitely would of been, that its a kind of a hobbling thing, like what they do to our heads as well. For all the time that we could never of talked to GPs like that and saw and knew what happened in Doctors rooms to girls that were put up to talking straight like that we wish we could feel more, something about being able to talk truth to a professional and then look at them like c'mon what you got and watch them pretend to be caring professionals and not members of a massive brutal and powerful gang. They haven't changed though. Don't think there would be many left at ...

No contact with anyone so no hate to report. Except of course the hate that's involved in making and maintaining the no contact. .... Will have to go to the shop at some point though but that should be superficially fine as far as the antisemitism is concerned. Glad the gobbing didn't start up full time again but they have won when it comes to us leaving the house much because of it all. The knowing we are being watched and followed we are done with pretending it isn't happening so we can give the kid and the our internal kids a day out. Hasn't been any issues we have noticed in town either when we go in every few months or so. Its hardly going to convince our nervous system that its safe though as there is no empiricism or new contacts to back that shit up. Remembering another mother. A biological one, most of her brain removed when we were little but still being used to torture and mess with us up until the Dundee years. Us by ourselves that had to deal with it...

Its got to us. The "my nice new teacher knows Grandad Bill and its okay" shit. Can't tell if the memories we have of being told the same shit and not saying much in response but saying something about there not being ongoing contact and our health needs that to continue. Maybe a bit more.. Don't know if that's a real conventionally recorded incident from the last meeting with the school or just some abusive programming. We were definitely told they had heatd Pablo's father might be paying for his school meals when we first got there.. Lots of artwork about the school's values about the place.. "Respect".. We are so sick of living dissociated, in fear and in pernament disgust at it all. The only formal education he's ever had has been from a system designed to deny and annihilate him, from individuals that support child rape, kidnappings, slaughter and then of course there is the healthcare situation. And the police and their anti hate crim...

We got him to shower twice in three days, he's got a new term haircut, he wasn't late this morning, at least half of his new school clothes fit him, cooked him sausages for breakfast, he's in clean bedding & clean jammies and we played a fighting game on the Wii U with him for a bit. We are feeling not too bad. "...Oh and my new teacher knows Grandad Bill!.." Of course she does. And of course its appropriate for her to say so to him. "...She's nice.." ".... .Well that's all that matters honey...." After rain, sunshine and wind it turned into a still lovely evening and the logs arrived today so we had to. Been fairy gardening too. Not finished and up yet so no pics of that. Got lovely stuff but definitely for the final last last time from the "your into bad stuff, isnt that what that star means" lass over £5 "for petrol" on a £90 deal. We did not bad it was last October that we gave up the last ti...

Wish I could show you all all the photos of our garden and the pride in our littles faces and then we could see the pride in yours. Wish we could see your faces as we told you how people talk to us. The Brits and the yanks are never going to give me anything that belongs to me especially our passport. They will never provide anything in writing to us to say why. Britannia rules, protect the slavery and maintain the hate it requires above all else. Its their system of values, their moral compass, the meaning behind everything. Schools go back this week. We are glad we are not as exhausted and heartbroken as we were this time last year. Wish we could of had more fun and gone places with the lad though.

We trying to take care of ourself because you all care about us and need us to but its difficult but not as difficult as it was when we couldn't remember any of you at all and couldn't access any sense of anyone ever genuinely caring about us. We will take our meds and eat food and wash as best we can and do as well as we can for the junior to and tell ourself this is not forever but every hour feels like forever and every day has been stolen from us and can't ever be given or taken back. We did some fairy window painting and the other set of little ball lights came but we haven't put them up. Maybe tomorrow. Not waiting until there is weed money because even when the money gets in we will still have the supplier issues. Hash guy is out because he claims to know nothing about anything and absolutey knows nothing about fascism in Fife and me being bullshitted about or treated badly in any way. That leaves Ms thirty something that claims to not know the difference betw...

Can't wait to get more wood. Getting colder now. He's dead chuffed with coat we ordered for schools going back. Bonus. Some after the rain shots.. Rosa Louisa Ann deMarco

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"But they are just glued on. They will never lead anywhere." "They will." They said with so much warmth and complexity we knew they smiling at us. "It doesn't matter."  They countined and for a moment we felt we caught glimpes of their edges, their shapes before it was lost again in all the mess and fuzz. "It shows you have made rooms for us in you and those rooms will last and be part of you everywhere you go after leave that garden." "Can you promise me I will leave that garden?" Got more on the way; window boxes we can use the nail varnish on so they are different colours, couple more windows, the little ball lights are still a fiver and need it for the pink fence. The gorilla glue gel is working really well for the impatient fairy gardener.. More little lanterns that are also completely necessary will have to wait until next week. ....