"As your all waiting until 2018 we no longer have to worry about you any of you because your choosing to stick with the Satanic programming."
No contact with anyone so no hate to report. Except of course the hate that's involved in making and maintaining the no contact.
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Will have to go to the shop at some point though but that should be superficially fine as far as the antisemitism is concerned. Glad the gobbing didn't start up full time again but they have won when it comes to us leaving the house much because of it all. The knowing we are being watched and followed we are done with pretending it isn't happening so we can give the kid and the our internal kids a day out. Hasn't been any issues we have noticed in town either when we go in every few months or so. Its hardly going to convince our nervous system that its safe though as there is no empiricism or new contacts to back that shit up.
Remembering another mother. A biological one, most of her brain removed when we were little but still being used to torture and mess with us up until the Dundee years. Us by ourselves that had to deal with it. And then help Laura. And then all the endless battles and child care here, then hospitalisation and all the attacks on our life and mind that involved.. We keep thinking about local twats looking all full of themselves for shoting dead agents around here after watching them talk to me in a superficially reasonable way because that must mean they are "mine".. We tried to explain but they don't have the cognitive abilities to understand anything, especially when it us speaking because we choose to but those men salaried and were leaving us here alone before being picked off by an highly unskilled Scottish prick. How the fuck could they be "mine"? How the fuck can anything on a Fascist proceeds from slavery pay roll every be mine?? What the fuck would we want with them anyway? Even if they want to help they got mortgages and families and car payments and all that shit that there are working to stop us from ever having..And of course the very real threat of violence, torture and murder if they are spotted considering working for humanity rather than its destruction.
We have swapped our summertime sadness for term time terror. Was gonna put that in text that hasn't been answered anyway but decided it was too good to be hardly seen by anyone..
Positives! We are too down for booze and bought some boosters for Seekers instead helps keep us distracted. The Aberdeen rings and therefore the nation state authority rings are not what they were even if the only confirmation of that came from Niall himself before we managed to shut that down. He fished for details on how Bunny died. " With his own gun wasn't it?" Started some shit about the time he asked us if Pabs was Ewen's from rape and asking us why we lied, awful standard victim blaming that we managed to interupt and stop. He said Colin was in some legal trouble and was blaming us for it "How old am I in these tapes Niall? Prepubescent? Heavily pregnant?". No one has contacted us about it.
We got up from the Mitch table and walked upstairs to get away from it and heard him on the phone as expected. We touched our wooden wall Buddha and sank to the floor to shake for a few seconds before pulling our self together. He tried to get to Pabs but we stopped him, that time anyway.
Think he might of said something about Snowy too but we can't remember. They used to try and pull this bull that Snowy knew nothing about any of it, it was remarkable. How the fuck would he still be alive and hanging out with the rest of them if that was true? As far as we know everyone else like the rest of the Anderson's, the majority of the oil industry rings and of course " Grandad Bill", Nathan Johnston and the rest of skinter side of the northern crews are all still sick as fuck and are looked after because of it.
Not very positive. Got no fucking appetite.
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Will have to go to the shop at some point though but that should be superficially fine as far as the antisemitism is concerned. Glad the gobbing didn't start up full time again but they have won when it comes to us leaving the house much because of it all. The knowing we are being watched and followed we are done with pretending it isn't happening so we can give the kid and the our internal kids a day out. Hasn't been any issues we have noticed in town either when we go in every few months or so. Its hardly going to convince our nervous system that its safe though as there is no empiricism or new contacts to back that shit up.
Remembering another mother. A biological one, most of her brain removed when we were little but still being used to torture and mess with us up until the Dundee years. Us by ourselves that had to deal with it. And then help Laura. And then all the endless battles and child care here, then hospitalisation and all the attacks on our life and mind that involved.. We keep thinking about local twats looking all full of themselves for shoting dead agents around here after watching them talk to me in a superficially reasonable way because that must mean they are "mine".. We tried to explain but they don't have the cognitive abilities to understand anything, especially when it us speaking because we choose to but those men salaried and were leaving us here alone before being picked off by an highly unskilled Scottish prick. How the fuck could they be "mine"? How the fuck can anything on a Fascist proceeds from slavery pay roll every be mine?? What the fuck would we want with them anyway? Even if they want to help they got mortgages and families and car payments and all that shit that there are working to stop us from ever having..And of course the very real threat of violence, torture and murder if they are spotted considering working for humanity rather than its destruction.
We have swapped our summertime sadness for term time terror. Was gonna put that in text that hasn't been answered anyway but decided it was too good to be hardly seen by anyone..
Positives! We are too down for booze and bought some boosters for Seekers instead helps keep us distracted. The Aberdeen rings and therefore the nation state authority rings are not what they were even if the only confirmation of that came from Niall himself before we managed to shut that down. He fished for details on how Bunny died. " With his own gun wasn't it?" Started some shit about the time he asked us if Pabs was Ewen's from rape and asking us why we lied, awful standard victim blaming that we managed to interupt and stop. He said Colin was in some legal trouble and was blaming us for it "How old am I in these tapes Niall? Prepubescent? Heavily pregnant?". No one has contacted us about it.
We got up from the Mitch table and walked upstairs to get away from it and heard him on the phone as expected. We touched our wooden wall Buddha and sank to the floor to shake for a few seconds before pulling our self together. He tried to get to Pabs but we stopped him, that time anyway.
Think he might of said something about Snowy too but we can't remember. They used to try and pull this bull that Snowy knew nothing about any of it, it was remarkable. How the fuck would he still be alive and hanging out with the rest of them if that was true? As far as we know everyone else like the rest of the Anderson's, the majority of the oil industry rings and of course " Grandad Bill", Nathan Johnston and the rest of skinter side of the northern crews are all still sick as fuck and are looked after because of it.
Not very positive. Got no fucking appetite.
