Daddy has his ship back.. we think..
Bugger all to report really, the school phoned to say dude was very sleepy in class. They have put him forward for autism testing and we have forms to fill in. We don't want to fill in any forms and feel like we really cant but we never wanted him to grow up or ever be in Scotland either though. Keep thinking about the cheer at the shot that went out from loads of neighbours when Bunny died. They were assuming it was me that was shot and were cheering because they thought I was dead and they now had Pablo and could do what they liked/were instructed to do to him. Besides the sheer horribleness of that there is the assumption that a dead head rape bot could kill a highly trained, self aware, organic human with one shot.. These people are incapable of learning, of processing information gathered from their own senses, of any genuine consciousness never mind self care or compassion at all.
Been thinking about Lee the first young horror story that was selling to us, mostly hash of course. He was also of course in regular communication with next door and told us they were bringing Bunny down after we refused meth and then heroine. We said we knew ans thanked him for the oppurtunity of clearing that particular issue up. The whole time we have been in Scotland since a toddler its been the same, we refuse the amphetamines, we refuse the heroine then we get a rape threat. For over thirty fucking years. But it's okay because Nicola Sturgeon and the British authorities take reports of antisemitism very seriously. It's so fucking sick.
One time we said to him that child abuse wasn't power but he flat out disagreed and said it was.. The fucked up victim has a daughter. His brother did a quite convincing line for a while in not being happy with Lee's behaviour but then ruined it by asking for others if Graham was still alive and where he was. No one is their own. We hate it here. Don't know if we mentioned the time a load of them came to the door and said they wanted us out, like we fucking want or choose to be here.
Stuff we order when we had smokable meds for our fairy window box plans keep arriving but without the meds to help with the CPTSD and the situational depression they just make us feel sad about what we could be doing with this time and are getting drawered.
The dreams are of course, awful and we can't shake them. Our right hand is as predicted giving us increasing yip but we are sticking with our promise to not stress or strech any security we have through non emergency or NHS appointments that have not been planned and prepared for years in advance.
Keep thinking about all the girls that were kidnapped, dissociated, sold lots, told they were Louise and/or me and then murdered by whole communities, by the whole fucking country, with the support of many others, and all our and their baby boys.. Patriarchy can only reproduce itself if all the males are fucking stupid so no Jew boys allowed.
So yeah sore and yucky in lots places and in lots of ways but you all got your prearranged crappy lives and your shitty propaganda so who cares?
Been thinking about Lee the first young horror story that was selling to us, mostly hash of course. He was also of course in regular communication with next door and told us they were bringing Bunny down after we refused meth and then heroine. We said we knew ans thanked him for the oppurtunity of clearing that particular issue up. The whole time we have been in Scotland since a toddler its been the same, we refuse the amphetamines, we refuse the heroine then we get a rape threat. For over thirty fucking years. But it's okay because Nicola Sturgeon and the British authorities take reports of antisemitism very seriously. It's so fucking sick.
One time we said to him that child abuse wasn't power but he flat out disagreed and said it was.. The fucked up victim has a daughter. His brother did a quite convincing line for a while in not being happy with Lee's behaviour but then ruined it by asking for others if Graham was still alive and where he was. No one is their own. We hate it here. Don't know if we mentioned the time a load of them came to the door and said they wanted us out, like we fucking want or choose to be here.
Stuff we order when we had smokable meds for our fairy window box plans keep arriving but without the meds to help with the CPTSD and the situational depression they just make us feel sad about what we could be doing with this time and are getting drawered.
The dreams are of course, awful and we can't shake them. Our right hand is as predicted giving us increasing yip but we are sticking with our promise to not stress or strech any security we have through non emergency or NHS appointments that have not been planned and prepared for years in advance.
Keep thinking about all the girls that were kidnapped, dissociated, sold lots, told they were Louise and/or me and then murdered by whole communities, by the whole fucking country, with the support of many others, and all our and their baby boys.. Patriarchy can only reproduce itself if all the males are fucking stupid so no Jew boys allowed.
So yeah sore and yucky in lots places and in lots of ways but you all got your prearranged crappy lives and your shitty propaganda so who cares?
