You helped them destroy every thing real but the hate
Fairly Scottish June weather wise, the wind toppled the smallest buddleia but i think we may have rescued it, more rain in a few days that the whole of May but in terms of state organised torture, brain damaging, and murder of infants, gang rape, breeding, genocide and attempts to murder, sexually torture, impregnant, hack or zap chunks of my brain or other essential organs out its been a good one so far.
Picked the crappy diazepam up yesterday. Wish we could get more it fairly gives me and appetite. Lots or rolls with already cheese, salad, ham and crisps yesterday and one this now to. Finished off the pills this morning. The crumbly we been getting is really week and Tuesday's half oz was polished off last night in front off the fire with our second bottle of wine for the day. There is at least some of that left.
Can't get our attitude anywhere near responsibility with the income. How the fuck can we? It's bullshit, injury and insult all in one. The ridiculous effort, work, violence, threats and honest exposure of how unfit we are for employment anyway but espically under current regimes left a bitterness that wouldn't go away if they had us on ten times what we are getting. Bank charges yesterday. From RBS to us. We hate you Royal Bank of Scotland, there is nothing legal about the banks even by their own Fascist money laudering institution ancient systems.
Kinda in a bugger all helps kind of place. The pills, drink just lifts the inhibitions we need to make us feel like things are OK, could be worse and remind us everything could and came very close many times to being so much better.
We told dude we were glad he was our best friend but we really wished we had friends who were closer to our age and knew us. He gave us a hug. This is the time we have to let Jess go isn't it. And everyone else we have believed cared for us in the states. There never has been any genuin institutional resistance to the destruction and enslavement of all high IQ and emotionally intelligent blood lines. Never has been. Never will be. Every time you believed what they told you, what they showed you buried you deeper in Fascism and there is no one left to try and dig any of you out. Certainly not us. We can't separate any off you from attempts at murder and succesful torture on me and the first kid they forced us to carry and then didn't sell or slaughter. Plenty tried though. And all that fighting alone when pregnant or with a infant against the whole organised shit planet changed us even more and took everyone on Earth off our lists of people we care about.
This collapsing of our hope from Earth was designed to kill us but it gave us a freedom we have never felt here and has made it possible to focus on someone who does love and respect me and who can get me away from communities and states built entirely on and with antisemitic, misogynist slavery from conception to whatevers next on the script - me.
Picked the crappy diazepam up yesterday. Wish we could get more it fairly gives me and appetite. Lots or rolls with already cheese, salad, ham and crisps yesterday and one this now to. Finished off the pills this morning. The crumbly we been getting is really week and Tuesday's half oz was polished off last night in front off the fire with our second bottle of wine for the day. There is at least some of that left.
Can't get our attitude anywhere near responsibility with the income. How the fuck can we? It's bullshit, injury and insult all in one. The ridiculous effort, work, violence, threats and honest exposure of how unfit we are for employment anyway but espically under current regimes left a bitterness that wouldn't go away if they had us on ten times what we are getting. Bank charges yesterday. From RBS to us. We hate you Royal Bank of Scotland, there is nothing legal about the banks even by their own Fascist money laudering institution ancient systems.
Kinda in a bugger all helps kind of place. The pills, drink just lifts the inhibitions we need to make us feel like things are OK, could be worse and remind us everything could and came very close many times to being so much better.
We told dude we were glad he was our best friend but we really wished we had friends who were closer to our age and knew us. He gave us a hug. This is the time we have to let Jess go isn't it. And everyone else we have believed cared for us in the states. There never has been any genuin institutional resistance to the destruction and enslavement of all high IQ and emotionally intelligent blood lines. Never has been. Never will be. Every time you believed what they told you, what they showed you buried you deeper in Fascism and there is no one left to try and dig any of you out. Certainly not us. We can't separate any off you from attempts at murder and succesful torture on me and the first kid they forced us to carry and then didn't sell or slaughter. Plenty tried though. And all that fighting alone when pregnant or with a infant against the whole organised shit planet changed us even more and took everyone on Earth off our lists of people we care about.
This collapsing of our hope from Earth was designed to kill us but it gave us a freedom we have never felt here and has made it possible to focus on someone who does love and respect me and who can get me away from communities and states built entirely on and with antisemitic, misogynist slavery from conception to whatevers next on the script - me.
