hello pink clematis..
Thankful for the cloud cover and the coolness. Its supposed to brighten up later and that to will also be cool. Legs and the rest of us well aware that we did loads of watering and feeding yesterday. Hands are okay though, we only used big watering can on the big things and never tried to carry it around full, used it to fill the little one the rest of the time.
Dreams so horrible and Lynny they had us reaching for the codiene first thing. Chilling in doors without worrying things may be drying out and piggy definitely will be if I don't move her is fine for now. Little things have arrived. The glitter nail polish has arrived to but we want some solid colour on some of them. Found a couple of other colours in the house so can do some of them.
Gonna be really hard deciding where to put things. Checked out the folk who where selling them and wished we hadn't, tempted by the sign posts and the pub but very much put off by the "free Tommy Robinson" shit and Fascist Christian crusades bumper stickers. Kind of impossible to buy things without buying things from Fascists but doubt there are many who have done more off setting than me.
School official break time the same as our own, pretty rare. So glad. The honeysuckle flowers are still there. We checked and there is still more on the way to. We need to be chill about it. Don't let it dry out give it lots but not too much food when the sun isnt on it. Fabulous. Wonderful. Cool as fuck. The buddleia that was found to be horizontal when there was all that wind a few weeks ago is looking to be the first to flower again this year. Could probably take the bricks away but haven't yet.
Been pulling out the stuff we thought wasn't a weed but is and it is leaving spaces but we got no compost and stuff we got already might fill it anyway. It's nearly July. The schools are off and we are not miserable and feeling horrible and all ill and exhausted in all the ways. It really good not feeling all that horribleness and a relief that its not buried or thrown to a far shelf. Continuity. We fought very hard and we understand how people would choose to not only want it but choose to avoid it at severe costs but we already understood how you need it for your long term sanity and often for survival in the short tern because amnesia is exploited and exploited hard. In the medium term it's needed to deal with anxieties. All the time we have needed it or we would of had nothing at all.
It did brightened up for a bit. Found this out. A reward for all last nights feeding.
Come on someone. Someone real and not made by and for the Fascists machines we took apart. The photos can't really capture it all and you can't sniff them. Plus we need help cause of our hands. And because we are a human being for fucks sake.
Dreams so horrible and Lynny they had us reaching for the codiene first thing. Chilling in doors without worrying things may be drying out and piggy definitely will be if I don't move her is fine for now. Little things have arrived. The glitter nail polish has arrived to but we want some solid colour on some of them. Found a couple of other colours in the house so can do some of them.
Gonna be really hard deciding where to put things. Checked out the folk who where selling them and wished we hadn't, tempted by the sign posts and the pub but very much put off by the "free Tommy Robinson" shit and Fascist Christian crusades bumper stickers. Kind of impossible to buy things without buying things from Fascists but doubt there are many who have done more off setting than me.
School official break time the same as our own, pretty rare. So glad. The honeysuckle flowers are still there. We checked and there is still more on the way to. We need to be chill about it. Don't let it dry out give it lots but not too much food when the sun isnt on it. Fabulous. Wonderful. Cool as fuck. The buddleia that was found to be horizontal when there was all that wind a few weeks ago is looking to be the first to flower again this year. Could probably take the bricks away but haven't yet.
Been pulling out the stuff we thought wasn't a weed but is and it is leaving spaces but we got no compost and stuff we got already might fill it anyway. It's nearly July. The schools are off and we are not miserable and feeling horrible and all ill and exhausted in all the ways. It really good not feeling all that horribleness and a relief that its not buried or thrown to a far shelf. Continuity. We fought very hard and we understand how people would choose to not only want it but choose to avoid it at severe costs but we already understood how you need it for your long term sanity and often for survival in the short tern because amnesia is exploited and exploited hard. In the medium term it's needed to deal with anxieties. All the time we have needed it or we would of had nothing at all.
It did brightened up for a bit. Found this out. A reward for all last nights feeding.
Honeysuckle still looking and smelling wondrous.
Come on someone. Someone real and not made by and for the Fascists machines we took apart. The photos can't really capture it all and you can't sniff them. Plus we need help cause of our hands. And because we are a human being for fucks sake.
