You cant do what you are doing and care about anyone or anything.
Admittedly we did some very unhealthy recycling today. Reminded ourself of how cool it would be to only smoke one or two a day. We dont have the will power for that when alone, not very active and having bad issues with mood and pain.
Very confident we wont be buying baccy tomorrow with the whole £20 child benefit. It will be another week before we get another twenty and a few more days after that before we see money that would not be an immediate choice between eating or fags. Cant see us going back after that time. It feels real this time.
Got a letter about council tax, should of held on before giving them as much as we did as the instalments they are now asking for are actually doable.
Been watching and reading too much US news. Its like if Savile was alive and had been made PM, or Ferris or some other evil cunt from the worst of the music scenes. Their fucking faces, their voices everywhere. Revolting.
Saw a actress has pleaded guilty to sex trafficking and related crimes. That’s not nothing and not likely to happen over here for worse or similar crimes. The states is too big for all law enforcement and press to be on the same page on everything. Would be better if they indicted president evil and lots of comrades and associates in the 80s though. What a very different world this could of been.
Gonna try sleepin. Gotta not eat all the weeks worth of food tomorrow so good living close to cheap shops. Would be even tougher if we ended up in one of the other places we looked at. Not as good as being with real family and friends and without so much mourning to somehow figure a way through on our own.
Okay. Sleep. And in the morning, food.
Very confident we wont be buying baccy tomorrow with the whole £20 child benefit. It will be another week before we get another twenty and a few more days after that before we see money that would not be an immediate choice between eating or fags. Cant see us going back after that time. It feels real this time.
Got a letter about council tax, should of held on before giving them as much as we did as the instalments they are now asking for are actually doable.
Been watching and reading too much US news. Its like if Savile was alive and had been made PM, or Ferris or some other evil cunt from the worst of the music scenes. Their fucking faces, their voices everywhere. Revolting.
Saw a actress has pleaded guilty to sex trafficking and related crimes. That’s not nothing and not likely to happen over here for worse or similar crimes. The states is too big for all law enforcement and press to be on the same page on everything. Would be better if they indicted president evil and lots of comrades and associates in the 80s though. What a very different world this could of been.
Gonna try sleepin. Gotta not eat all the weeks worth of food tomorrow so good living close to cheap shops. Would be even tougher if we ended up in one of the other places we looked at. Not as good as being with real family and friends and without so much mourning to somehow figure a way through on our own.
Okay. Sleep. And in the morning, food.
