FUCK OFF Anxiety
Seriously, do one.
Yes We know flitting is very stressful for anyone, yes we know having no support network makes everything harder, yes we know PTSD can be awful and is not well supported by the NHS while DID isnt even recognised as a thing, yes we know chronic pain can make anyone's life miserable, yes we know many people are find financial insecurity in general and the change to universal credit in particular really unpleasant, yes we know its not easy being a single parent. Yes We know that that when trafficking victims who had years of torture programming do something they have been repeatedly told to not do whilst being tortured they do not feel comfortable no matter how much in their interests it is to do thing their abusers told them not to do. Yes We know everything we have achieved recently is exhausting and is going to take us a while to recover. But for fuck sake give us a break.
Seriously.
Guess we better see if the docs gave processed our registration tomorrow and see if we can get an appointment. But what if we get somewhere horrible and we walk out feeling suicidal like GPs and psychs have in the past? There is nothing we can do about it. No one to phone. No weed or hope of it. No better than nothing antianxiety pills. Just us. All little trying to look after ourself and an adolescent, trying not to feel worse when he acts like a typical kid and doesn't want to do what he's told, trying not to be triggered by his size, gender and attitude. Just us without enough food. Anything we do to improve our situation just costs us so much when everything has already been taken, we are so fucking sick of that.
Yes We know flitting is very stressful for anyone, yes we know having no support network makes everything harder, yes we know PTSD can be awful and is not well supported by the NHS while DID isnt even recognised as a thing, yes we know chronic pain can make anyone's life miserable, yes we know many people are find financial insecurity in general and the change to universal credit in particular really unpleasant, yes we know its not easy being a single parent. Yes We know that that when trafficking victims who had years of torture programming do something they have been repeatedly told to not do whilst being tortured they do not feel comfortable no matter how much in their interests it is to do thing their abusers told them not to do. Yes We know everything we have achieved recently is exhausting and is going to take us a while to recover. But for fuck sake give us a break.
Seriously.
Guess we better see if the docs gave processed our registration tomorrow and see if we can get an appointment. But what if we get somewhere horrible and we walk out feeling suicidal like GPs and psychs have in the past? There is nothing we can do about it. No one to phone. No weed or hope of it. No better than nothing antianxiety pills. Just us. All little trying to look after ourself and an adolescent, trying not to feel worse when he acts like a typical kid and doesn't want to do what he's told, trying not to be triggered by his size, gender and attitude. Just us without enough food. Anything we do to improve our situation just costs us so much when everything has already been taken, we are so fucking sick of that.
