Love the good bits.
Camping out in the living room again. The temporary curtain pole came down before we have been able to coordinate ourselves into fixing it. The bedroom is too perfect. Too ice. Something not quite right. We will get it more lived in when the time is right. At moment we need the telly and the comfort of a decent sofa without the triggers, pressure and anxiety about going to bed.
Our little cute little castle town is coming along lovely, its charmed quite a few littles, all of us seem to using to practice patience with varying success..We've made a list of Christmas presents for the external bairns, more than we can afford but we have seen stuff and Amazon disappear before and we wont have to think about Xmas for a good while..Its all stuff that we have thought about and want to give them, nothing over a tenner but quality little stuff. Think it will definitely make us even happier to actually check the list out, it was lovely choosing stuff. When it arrives and wrapping it will all be great to and we are reasonably sure our choices arnt too off, hopefully. Something for us to of course, a forest fairy. Also eyeing up vintage moterbike adds.. yum. Externals first with the shopping this week though.. :o)
Happiness is good.
Moving forward with the additional info for Jersey statement. Good progress, taking it easy on our selfs. We need to explain the voice in the original statement, that means explaining our DID. We also need to answer the questions she couldn't answer at the time about our back ground. Of course, the additional information for the 'abuse on mainland' and 'abuse on Jersey' sections is not an immediate concern.. A fair bit more processing, acceptance, mourning, hurting etc., before we will be producing any coherent approximation of events.. It's there though and so are the parts that can get us through the worst of the horrors we return to when the thickest of the amnesia walls come down. They had to use their worst stuff to break apart our strongest parts. Getting in touch with them and the best parts of us getting in touch with each other again makes the memories survivable. We know we have to get through it. They are so worth fighting for.
Gonna buy those presents. There is talk of finally starting to finish the downstairs.. we shall see.
All is good. If a bit understandably wobbly. Long may the weed last..
Our little cute little castle town is coming along lovely, its charmed quite a few littles, all of us seem to using to practice patience with varying success..We've made a list of Christmas presents for the external bairns, more than we can afford but we have seen stuff and Amazon disappear before and we wont have to think about Xmas for a good while..Its all stuff that we have thought about and want to give them, nothing over a tenner but quality little stuff. Think it will definitely make us even happier to actually check the list out, it was lovely choosing stuff. When it arrives and wrapping it will all be great to and we are reasonably sure our choices arnt too off, hopefully. Something for us to of course, a forest fairy. Also eyeing up vintage moterbike adds.. yum. Externals first with the shopping this week though.. :o)
Happiness is good.
Moving forward with the additional info for Jersey statement. Good progress, taking it easy on our selfs. We need to explain the voice in the original statement, that means explaining our DID. We also need to answer the questions she couldn't answer at the time about our back ground. Of course, the additional information for the 'abuse on mainland' and 'abuse on Jersey' sections is not an immediate concern.. A fair bit more processing, acceptance, mourning, hurting etc., before we will be producing any coherent approximation of events.. It's there though and so are the parts that can get us through the worst of the horrors we return to when the thickest of the amnesia walls come down. They had to use their worst stuff to break apart our strongest parts. Getting in touch with them and the best parts of us getting in touch with each other again makes the memories survivable. We know we have to get through it. They are so worth fighting for.
Gonna buy those presents. There is talk of finally starting to finish the downstairs.. we shall see.
All is good. If a bit understandably wobbly. Long may the weed last..
