need my son and my face back
We didn't have the heart to turn a neighbours kid away when he turned up to hang out its September, the schools are back the chances of us not catching any colds in our run down state and all the fag smoking is pretty much impossible. We did our best though even washed down door handles and stuff but it's got us. Fever, fucked up fever dreams, snottiness, sore throat becoming an infection in our chest with a cough that is so sore, trying to limit the nictone crutch but now its just a cough and not crazy painfull its harder. More misery wahay.
Think we got the infection and cist out of an arm pit before it became another source of great pain. Thinner skin as I get older means they are less likely to develop into the full on agonising heading towards blood poisoning type thing.
Was glad when dude went out to play in the sunshine with a pal but he was back pretty quick because of other kids giving him crap. It got us wondering about a way out. Of course any research we did to find somewhere else would be watched by all the Fascist surveillance but anywhere would be better than Fife, Dundee, Aberdeenshire, Glasgow.... Can't see how Edinburgh could be much better but maybe its worth considering. Wondering about North England to, the no access to cannabis does make it slightly less impossible for us to save up a deposit. But organising a flit with no friends, no contacts, no real name or ID, no car, no driving license and preparing our self what ever horribleness past, present and future will be waiting for us wherever we can get to is some thought.
We can't get out from under the NHS, the school system, the police, the politicians but we could maybe get out of Fife and that would be something I guess.. Even if Fife does have cars, driving licenses, the police, the NHS, the school system, the politicians..
More stuff arrived for the decent human genocide memorial fairy garden but with the shitty cold and no Sonny we don't have the motivation. Keep thinking about the nonstop disgusting abuse that was Laura and Margo's life, its not like they were only ones they are two out of billions over the many centuries but that is not something that can make us feel better. Only angier.
We need any of our legal IDs and access to the money legally earned in other countries so we can get a home that gives us at least some distance between us and "culture" centered on misogyny, child abuse and rejecting science. Some chance of safe healthcare and education for our boys, somewhere we could go for a walk and not get quite so many mass slaughter of innocents flashbacks.
Keep thinking about the whole "don't get a lot of requests from people asking for a bigger nose" thang. How it felt when the image of how we might look was tweeted so we could see it. We want to look like what we are, not what slavers want us to look like. Bigger nose, much, much less hair. We have never cared or wanted to be a "pretty girl" we don't understand how any one could, it means being exploited by brutal stupid protected men, it means jealousy from ignorant girls and women. I'm a fucking soldier not an object that is some how both decorative but has a brain they need to do everything for them including telling them how to destroy us, so they can continue to enjoy endless privileges without fear of consequences or justice. Its fucking obsence, irrational and insane. We hate it here. We need both Pabs and Sonny, we need a home away from so much blood and pain soaked ground and protection from hate and all the forms of slavery they use on us.
Writing hasn't made us feel any better today.
Think we got the infection and cist out of an arm pit before it became another source of great pain. Thinner skin as I get older means they are less likely to develop into the full on agonising heading towards blood poisoning type thing.
Was glad when dude went out to play in the sunshine with a pal but he was back pretty quick because of other kids giving him crap. It got us wondering about a way out. Of course any research we did to find somewhere else would be watched by all the Fascist surveillance but anywhere would be better than Fife, Dundee, Aberdeenshire, Glasgow.... Can't see how Edinburgh could be much better but maybe its worth considering. Wondering about North England to, the no access to cannabis does make it slightly less impossible for us to save up a deposit. But organising a flit with no friends, no contacts, no real name or ID, no car, no driving license and preparing our self what ever horribleness past, present and future will be waiting for us wherever we can get to is some thought.
We can't get out from under the NHS, the school system, the police, the politicians but we could maybe get out of Fife and that would be something I guess.. Even if Fife does have cars, driving licenses, the police, the NHS, the school system, the politicians..
More stuff arrived for the decent human genocide memorial fairy garden but with the shitty cold and no Sonny we don't have the motivation. Keep thinking about the nonstop disgusting abuse that was Laura and Margo's life, its not like they were only ones they are two out of billions over the many centuries but that is not something that can make us feel better. Only angier.
We need any of our legal IDs and access to the money legally earned in other countries so we can get a home that gives us at least some distance between us and "culture" centered on misogyny, child abuse and rejecting science. Some chance of safe healthcare and education for our boys, somewhere we could go for a walk and not get quite so many mass slaughter of innocents flashbacks.
Keep thinking about the whole "don't get a lot of requests from people asking for a bigger nose" thang. How it felt when the image of how we might look was tweeted so we could see it. We want to look like what we are, not what slavers want us to look like. Bigger nose, much, much less hair. We have never cared or wanted to be a "pretty girl" we don't understand how any one could, it means being exploited by brutal stupid protected men, it means jealousy from ignorant girls and women. I'm a fucking soldier not an object that is some how both decorative but has a brain they need to do everything for them including telling them how to destroy us, so they can continue to enjoy endless privileges without fear of consequences or justice. Its fucking obsence, irrational and insane. We hate it here. We need both Pabs and Sonny, we need a home away from so much blood and pain soaked ground and protection from hate and all the forms of slavery they use on us.
Writing hasn't made us feel any better today.
