Aint Misbehavin
Fairly caught us off guard didnt he the old cunt? Not that he was that old, one time there was birthday cards out and although it’s unlikely to be the actual date of his birth we couldnt look away from them, couldn’t not think about how all this shit ages people, twists and rots our bodies and souls. It got us in touch with a deep sense of usness we needed though. What we fight and why, a cold and relentless sense of purpose and pride.
Cancelled parents evening, was getting close to nauseous over it as the day went on. Zoe would of told us to. Its not essential, teachers can be talked to over the phone where there arnt loads of other parents. Phoned the docs about fitness note, thats been laying on us pretty heavy to but if we dont do it we wont be able to pay rent or eat. Wanted to ask about seeing a doctor about giving us some short term anti anxiety meds but when the receptionist said the note woukd be available later we couldn’t bring ourself to push it. It would of most likely just meant diazepam and you know we kinda fucking hate diazepam. In that place where a noise is enough to send our heart rate way up and then feel awful and weepy for ages after. There was an email from the landlord and we knew was routine and nothing to panic about but still we were panicking, shaking.
Hows you lovely? You a mess to? At least i can think the truth about you now. Yeah we need help to make the new garden all fabulous as well all the depression, anxiety and killer loneliness. And to help motivate us to excercise so our knees dont get so sore. You still love me? I dont eat salt and vinegar hula hoops so much, salt and vinegar ringos on the other hand we buy and hide from Pablo. You get cheese and onion ringos to and there also tasty, used to buy a big share bag from Dundee bus station and end up scoofing them in a oner and feeling ill..
Making spag bol tomorrow, mince is defrosting. Theres a ciabatta in the freezer to will take it out and put some lurpak and garlic in. Its always a good excuse to buy red wine is spag bol night.
Man im gonna be fucking gutted if this post ends up being a factor in you bloody dying as well. Really hope not, we loves yous and think we could see you without it bringing about certain death, for you, me and pabs anyway.
Cancelled parents evening, was getting close to nauseous over it as the day went on. Zoe would of told us to. Its not essential, teachers can be talked to over the phone where there arnt loads of other parents. Phoned the docs about fitness note, thats been laying on us pretty heavy to but if we dont do it we wont be able to pay rent or eat. Wanted to ask about seeing a doctor about giving us some short term anti anxiety meds but when the receptionist said the note woukd be available later we couldn’t bring ourself to push it. It would of most likely just meant diazepam and you know we kinda fucking hate diazepam. In that place where a noise is enough to send our heart rate way up and then feel awful and weepy for ages after. There was an email from the landlord and we knew was routine and nothing to panic about but still we were panicking, shaking.
Hows you lovely? You a mess to? At least i can think the truth about you now. Yeah we need help to make the new garden all fabulous as well all the depression, anxiety and killer loneliness. And to help motivate us to excercise so our knees dont get so sore. You still love me? I dont eat salt and vinegar hula hoops so much, salt and vinegar ringos on the other hand we buy and hide from Pablo. You get cheese and onion ringos to and there also tasty, used to buy a big share bag from Dundee bus station and end up scoofing them in a oner and feeling ill..
Making spag bol tomorrow, mince is defrosting. Theres a ciabatta in the freezer to will take it out and put some lurpak and garlic in. Its always a good excuse to buy red wine is spag bol night.
Man im gonna be fucking gutted if this post ends up being a factor in you bloody dying as well. Really hope not, we loves yous and think we could see you without it bringing about certain death, for you, me and pabs anyway.
