another beautiful day

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Groceries arrived just after twelve and we had already noticed the sky turning blue and were not back here until after six. We moved the fern that got repeatedly trampled on by ourself and the blokes who cut the hedge to a patch of border shaded by one of the mad happy buddleias. Separated out some of crazy number of seedlings that really seem to not be weeds along the path and made the bit at the top bigger with the same wooden border as we have running down the side of the pink fence. The stubby pink buddleia is bound to prefer not to have all those bricks and shit where roots could go. We are glad to have it done.

Thought we got a picture of the blue tit but its all blurry. She was around a fair bit today. Couldn't sleep last night. It didn't feel right, we wanted to stay up with parts from the past who are still in hell more than they are here. The bird song was amazing. There was something outside the window making such weird noises it made us chuckle.

Attempts to not get rid of the money really quickly didn't go so well but we got flea powder, a saw and the shorts we ordered for dude last week but everything had gone by the time they got the order together. There is some fairy stuff, a nerf target thing because we could we waiting for us to make targets for him for a long time and stocked up on food. We even looked at clothes for a while last night. Summery I have a tan and now I care what I look like clothes. Bargains will still be around next week..

Keep working. We are still doing it but what else can we do. How can we stop by ourself? It's too painful. 

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