coz im worth it and so’s he

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Its distressingly tight but we gotta put that money down, sign that paper and get those keys. If our head wasnt so messed up we wouldnt of fucked up loan forms, cant be applying for any more we know that. There’s emergency stuff out there that would maybe help with the actual move as its unlikely the   Budgeting loan will get to us as soon as we need it. Dude is being a darling saying to cancel netflix and xbox gold but we checked and they have already come of was kind of a relief has we would have to go to websites we don’t normally go to and remember passwords and its all anxiety causing. If we could just get a good non distessing solid block of sleep.. and had an immune system got a least two small but uncomfortable cists, one just might be a pulled hair infection that will sort itself out. And if we bathe and hot shower lots it helps. Sore fucking hands, uterus irritated, bladder irritated at least our bowels are not too bad! If worse comes to worse with the cash we will have to sell some of his games, he was volunteering ds but im thinking switch. Things should be okay quite quickly again after the move and will probs be able to replace them soon after.

Got more forms sent out today, yeah more forms with extra evidence gathering.. dated & licked the esa. One less to do he said, bless him his attitude is really helping. Got quote for rubbish removal. Actual flit quote tomorrow.. lady from cat shelter wants them to be vaccinated but cant see how the prices on the board in the vet were fucking crazy maybe we read it wrong..

Be looking at groups & massuers in area that’s been helping us stay calmer. Got fucking parents night tomorrow to. Oh joy. No more wine for us either until shit has been paid for. Got a good stock of food  though. No weed. No wine. Anxieties & insecurities aplenty. Hope hard to reach when so fucking tired. Pain killers were in though. Really sucks this whole no friends or family thing. Doesnt suck as much as having contact from abusers constantly but still its real shitty.

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