Is all little all of a sudden. Maybe pills doc gave us for over peeing. Maybe nots. Wishin we had ordered pain killers earlier we ran out. Wishin even more for proper helpful weed. Dont bother wishin for hugs or speaking or other bigger person to help me and big boy anymore. We been lots that we need to do maybe just that. Gonna be in a place we wanna be! Needs a bit more money to do it all soon and without too much stressin and feeling all victim though. But maybe weve sorted that to.. Gonna have to deal with lots of diffetent people and make lots of calls but we can if we know it will be worth it and get to stare at the sea. Lots done already. Gonna be glad to not feel bad for cats coz we cant get rid of all the fleas or when they miawo and we just need to look after selfs and big boy we got nothing left for anyone else. Gonna be so good to not have monsters next door making summer sad and horrible. Wonder wot brain will be like when not here.. gotta be really careful and not get lost but dont wanna be stuck in teeny comfort zone either. Will plan and check self and check ourself and usr phone it will be okay. Maybe even really good. Lady was all “its not very modern” we were all loving it. Its small & quirky like us! Hope we get doc that helps or at least doesn’t make us much worse. Really hate it when the comfy powerful not educated docs make us worse. Feels so hopeless and no one to comfort us about it after. We gonna get healthier away from here. Gonna be so tired and have to pretend we all big lots in mean time and be okay for big boy its gonna be hard at times. Think it might be real start. Hope so and if not we fight on. Feels right I think coz we not sure wot feels right feels like.. love you us. Fingers crossed for easy as poss we already managing so much better than we did, dont be mad about slips. Its okay to be glad margo gone she was able to know us or love us they hurt and controlled her too much. It gonna get better and better.
Watered and fed the Roses
We couldnt leave the flat this time last year. Couldn't even make it to the bins sometimes. Think I remember a post about the total dread experienced when May turned to June. Not so this year. Was a bit worried We would feel something close to that awfulness, that triggered terror on the day of the coronation that Tesco and the met office kindly told us about but nothing like it. Jesus those late last year posts acting like we were getting out fucking telling Junior we might be going home and 'twin'? wtf. Unfortunately, ended up in the garden the same time as the downstairs horror story and knew she was going to say something there was no way she wasn't going to mention it. She asked if We watched it I said 'Nah' pointlessly hoping that would be the end of it. She started talking about how 'wonderful' it was and we stuck up for ourself and all that is decent everywhere by saying it's 'a bit ridiculous for a modern country'. She started som