Not freaking out..
Its a universal credit area. If I want housing benefit, help with rent. I gotta apply. I'm not freaking out. Shaking and want to cry and scream. Maybe freaking out a bit. Helped when we read that if you've just been assessed they won't asses you again. That if your unfit to attend an interview and we so fucking are, we won't be forced to. Registered with the application site but went no further. So worried about money not being in for the deposit and first month. Would really help if we had someone to tell us its okay. Can't handle anymore calls never the gamble of what might pick up the phone at the other end of the help lines. That was what we found out from on call and we pushed past the urge to withdraw further and made a docs appointment at a time of day we might actually attend, with the doctor we think is a bit more consistent not the one whole is all ears one time and heartless as fuck the next time we make it in.
Stressing about every time we wrote on the form that we managed to do anything. Its not many times.. But still.
Pain is fucking awful think I might be in the place where the painkillers make the pain worse because of the lack of pooing .. Best wait until there has been movement before we take any more which is hard when in so much fucking pain. Had two donuts, eventually managed to get milk from shop with purse pennies not spending from the bank. Not until its in and transferred and cleared. Vodafone calling about unpaid bill cept messing up our sleep. Can't handle computer voices. Will sort it out when the budgeting loan gets in.
Actually read a couple of chapters of an actual book last night. First time in years except for A Christmas Carol last year. Wanted to write about what we are thinking about it, Sophie's World to stressed and scared now though. The Fortnite gunfire from the living room is not helping.
Airplay is working though. That's a good thing. London Still..
Stressing about every time we wrote on the form that we managed to do anything. Its not many times.. But still.
Pain is fucking awful think I might be in the place where the painkillers make the pain worse because of the lack of pooing .. Best wait until there has been movement before we take any more which is hard when in so much fucking pain. Had two donuts, eventually managed to get milk from shop with purse pennies not spending from the bank. Not until its in and transferred and cleared. Vodafone calling about unpaid bill cept messing up our sleep. Can't handle computer voices. Will sort it out when the budgeting loan gets in.
Actually read a couple of chapters of an actual book last night. First time in years except for A Christmas Carol last year. Wanted to write about what we are thinking about it, Sophie's World to stressed and scared now though. The Fortnite gunfire from the living room is not helping.
Airplay is working though. That's a good thing. London Still..
