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Checked the bank at about 2am and found the loan was in. Was not expecting it to go in at 2am on a Monday. We sensibly paid our phone bill, ordered nothing but bubble wrap from Amazon and put in a grocery delivery with Asda. Its really sinking in that we are gonna be there, not here. I hope we get something from the doc to help us sleep or just calm the fuck down. Was thinking no way am I unblocking anyone for smokes. Now Im thinking i wish my blood pressure would come down. Maybe will reasse later. It would be so nice and we haven’t had a spliff since August i think.. yep its decided will send a wee txt later on to one of them. Wont be txting anyone else over it and he might just ignore us/have us blocked anyway but its worth ago for some mood stability, a little less weepy a bit more chilled. Health requires we at least give it a shot. May have a better chance of weed from the others but nope cant do it. They are just too horrible and triggery and the girls will wanna chat like we are pals or some shit and cant be tolerating that at least with the blokes its short and sweet.
Wish we had been able to take pictures when we went in after we signed the lease just so we could stare at them now. We were fucking exhausted and sleep deprived though. There is very little cupboard space, the kitchen is really tiny and their is wood above the windows but not wide enough to fix most curtain brackets to.. thats kinda bugging but there is plates on the doors below the handles and they are decorative.. Storage heaters which is a kind of a bummer but the retired folk downstairs have gas and it helps keep ours cozy to. The agent went in an turned them on the day before we signed the lease and it was pretty cold outside but the place was roasting we went round and turned them all down. Bathroom just has a blowy heater on the wall and it was pretty cold probs wont take long to heat up with it on though.
There is a shower we remembered to check that and just a cheap white shower curtain so we will need to change that. Whole place is painted white but we got tonnes of decor so dont really care about that. The ceilings are pretty high we remember thinking that as we looked up at the iffy lamp shades that will do for now. We are not gonna listen to our impatience and try move the date closer, it will be nice to flit in an organised manner and not when ill and totally traumatised. Its a best for the lad to not change especially as he does have a best pal at his school who is a really good kid and I am sorry to have to break them up and hope they keep in touch.
Sorry about the cats to. Seeing all the cat food in our shopping favourites almost set me off again, looking forward to life without fleas though especially as the place is particularly crawling at the moment, what the fuck are they feeding off? Other than me and the lad of course. Yuck.
There is so much we like about the flat though and its location its no wonder some of our tortured EPs are freaking out. We are not supposed to get what we want and when and if we do the punishment and the down side are severe. Like here and having lots of space, trees out the windows and a south facing garden but Laura died, Margo died and almost everyone is involved in really horrific shit particularly the neighbors who were always pretty central to the drug and people trafficking, child abuse, torture, breeding, slavery and genocide scene here.
Those petrified littles are trying to prepare themselves and the rest of us for how it will feel to be settled in and really begining to adjust and them to turn up shouting and gloating and threatening like they always have. It actually might not happen this time though and if it does our petrified littles will not be on their own with it. We dont think the Krugars would have the same police support as they do here. Its not like we are headed for a big city like Manchester or Leeds or Liverpool. Think those littles are gonna be quite messy for a while though if we get to a place where they can become unstuck. We are not expecting to become any less emotional any time soon after moving. Hope we get a decent doctor and maybe when we get the benefits sorted we will be able to get the odd hot stone massage, find some other freaks to hangout with without it causing more stress and triggers than its worse.
We are so looking forward to seeing old buildings on a regular basis! Being around evidence of long bumpy histories is much better for us than just seeing nothing earlier than late 20th century, we start forgetting and feeling like there isnt any history or culture anywhere and that doesn’t feel nice or hopeful ever.
Wish we had been able to take pictures when we went in after we signed the lease just so we could stare at them now. We were fucking exhausted and sleep deprived though. There is very little cupboard space, the kitchen is really tiny and their is wood above the windows but not wide enough to fix most curtain brackets to.. thats kinda bugging but there is plates on the doors below the handles and they are decorative.. Storage heaters which is a kind of a bummer but the retired folk downstairs have gas and it helps keep ours cozy to. The agent went in an turned them on the day before we signed the lease and it was pretty cold outside but the place was roasting we went round and turned them all down. Bathroom just has a blowy heater on the wall and it was pretty cold probs wont take long to heat up with it on though.
There is a shower we remembered to check that and just a cheap white shower curtain so we will need to change that. Whole place is painted white but we got tonnes of decor so dont really care about that. The ceilings are pretty high we remember thinking that as we looked up at the iffy lamp shades that will do for now. We are not gonna listen to our impatience and try move the date closer, it will be nice to flit in an organised manner and not when ill and totally traumatised. Its a best for the lad to not change especially as he does have a best pal at his school who is a really good kid and I am sorry to have to break them up and hope they keep in touch.
Sorry about the cats to. Seeing all the cat food in our shopping favourites almost set me off again, looking forward to life without fleas though especially as the place is particularly crawling at the moment, what the fuck are they feeding off? Other than me and the lad of course. Yuck.
There is so much we like about the flat though and its location its no wonder some of our tortured EPs are freaking out. We are not supposed to get what we want and when and if we do the punishment and the down side are severe. Like here and having lots of space, trees out the windows and a south facing garden but Laura died, Margo died and almost everyone is involved in really horrific shit particularly the neighbors who were always pretty central to the drug and people trafficking, child abuse, torture, breeding, slavery and genocide scene here.
Those petrified littles are trying to prepare themselves and the rest of us for how it will feel to be settled in and really begining to adjust and them to turn up shouting and gloating and threatening like they always have. It actually might not happen this time though and if it does our petrified littles will not be on their own with it. We dont think the Krugars would have the same police support as they do here. Its not like we are headed for a big city like Manchester or Leeds or Liverpool. Think those littles are gonna be quite messy for a while though if we get to a place where they can become unstuck. We are not expecting to become any less emotional any time soon after moving. Hope we get a decent doctor and maybe when we get the benefits sorted we will be able to get the odd hot stone massage, find some other freaks to hangout with without it causing more stress and triggers than its worse.
We are so looking forward to seeing old buildings on a regular basis! Being around evidence of long bumpy histories is much better for us than just seeing nothing earlier than late 20th century, we start forgetting and feeling like there isnt any history or culture anywhere and that doesn’t feel nice or hopeful ever.
